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Guest Interview

Samantha Stroh Bailey

June 12, 2013 20 Comments

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About author, Samantha Stroh Bailey:  Samantha has been a writer ever since she could pick up a pen. In fact, she even sent her first manuscript, Freddy the Flame, to publishers when she was ten years old. Sadly, it was rejected, but a lifelong passion to write was born.

After 15 years of teaching ESL to adults, including at the University of Toronto, she decided to live her dreams of being a fulltime writer and editor. Now the owner of Perfect Pen Communications, she not only gets to write novels, but also writes and edits for magazines, websites, businesses, students and other authors. Her work has appeared in Now Magazine, The Village Post, Oxford University Press, Abilities Magazine, on mommyish.com and many other publications. Samantha also has a Master of Education in Applied Linguistics that looks really nice on her wall. Okay, in a box in her basement. She lives in Toronto with her husband and two children. Finding Lucas is her first novel.

Samantha loves to hear from readers! Connect with her!
Blog: http://samanthastrohbailey.blogspot.ca/
Twitter: @perfectpen

INTERVIEW

Describe yourself in five sentences:  Ridiculously tiny, I am five feet tall with my hair up and my six year old son is now gaining on me. I am afraid of heights, snakes, thunder and not accomplishing everything I want to. People often call me a fireball because I have enough energy to power a small city, and I love nothing more than spending time with my friends and family. I and warm, gushy and talkative, but I am also a good listener who people know they can trust.

Salty or sweet?  Salty!

You knew you were a writer when…:  As a little girl, I created characters who were nicer to me than the kids at school.

What are you reading right now?  I’m just finishing Saving Saffron Sweeting by Pauline Wiles. I adore the mix of American and British vernacular, and the story is funny, heartwarming and addictive. I love it!

A typical day for you involves…:  Waking up early, kissing my kids and husband, making breakfast and lunches, getting the kids ready for school, making more coffee and opening my laptop. I check my emails, sales ranks for Finding Lucas, connect with my online world and start writing and editing for my clients. I also spend at least an hour a day if I can revising my WIP.

How did you come up with the title of “Finding Lucas”?  I actually find it very hard to think of great titles, but that one just came to me.

Who is your favorite author?  I have so many favorites who have inspired me to write. At the top of my list are: Jennifer Weiner, Marian Keyes, Sophie Kinsella, Eileen Goudge, Ernest Hemingway, Jill Mansell, Jane Fallon…the list goes on and on. I have also come to admire and respect the talent of so many of the Goddesses.

What is the writing/editing/publishing process like for you?  Long.  🙂  I usually come up with my plot ideas late at night and I’m a very organic writer. I need to get a good chunk of the story from my head onto the paper before I can even think about editing. And, as a professional editor, it is very hard for me not to constantly edit myself. Once I have the gist of the story, I then go back and edit. Write more. Edit. Once I feel I have a story ready for my incredible beta readers, I send it, wanting them to tear it apart. I go back and revise and edit and then send it to an editor for a thorough look. Then I edit it again. And again.

A writer must have…:  Confidence.

Where is your favorite place to write?  My kitchen/office. Above my desk, there is a wall filled with my kids’ drawings.

Hard/paperbacks or eBooks?  If you’d asked me this a year ago, I would have said paperbacks all the way. But since publishing on Amazon and Kobo, I have become quite attached to my e-reader. Nothing can beat the smell of a new book and the feeling of turning the pages, but taking my ereader everywhere with me, even in a diaper bag, is fantastic.

Can you tell us about any of your upcoming projects?  I’m working on Everything But, my second novel, which is contemporary women’s fiction. It’s about a woman who risks her marriage and closest friendship to have the baby she never thought she wanted. It’s a story that I hope will resonate with anyone who has ever struggled to have a child.

**Additional comments by Samantha:  Thank you so much for having me, Isabella. When I found the Chick Lit Goddesses, I met the warmest, kindest and most supportive group of authors. I have an amazing family and the bestest of friends, but no one but a writer can truly understand what writing and publishing is like. I am so grateful to you for founding the group.

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Rhoda Baxter

June 11, 2013 9 Comments

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About author, Rhoda Baxter:  Rhoda Baxter started off in the South of England and pinged around the world a bit until she ended up in the North of England, where the cakes are better. Along the way she collected one husband, two kids, a few (ahem) extra pounds in weight and a PhD in molecular biology (not necessarily in that order). She had childhood ambitions to be an astronaut or at least 5 feet tall. Having failed at both of these, she now writes humourous novels instead.

Her first novel, Patently in Love was a contender for the RNA Joan Hessayon Award and was a top ten finalist in the 2012 Preditors and Editors poll for romance reads. Her second novel Having a Ball will be published in March 2013.

She can be found wittering on about science, comedy and cake on her website www.rhodabaxter.com or on Twitter (@rhodabaxter).

INTERVIEW

Describe yourself in five sentences:  I love cakes and chocolate. I talk too much and waste hours chatting to people. This has led to having a good ear for dialogue and a collection of fun anecdotes. I have an odd sense of humour, which has always helped me out when life gets difficult.

Writing is…:  In the grey area between sanity and lunacy. There are people living in my head demanding to have their stories told. If I didn’t write them down, I’d probably end up gibbering into my cornflakes.

If I’m writing, my hands are busy so I can’t sneak into the kitchen and go for the chocolate. So writing probably keeps me thin. Probably. Oh all right, all right, I admit it – I should join a gym. Except there’s this book I have to write…

When did you start writing?  One day, when I was about ten, I realized that Enid Blyton had died a long time ago. I looked at the rows of books on my shelf and thought  ‘she’s not even alive, but I’m still reading her books. That’s like being immortal’ (I was a precocious child. I knew what ‘immortal’ meant). I decided then that I wanted to be a writer. The first stories I made up were variations on the Famous Five stories. I realize now that it’s called Fan Fiction. Back in the day, I just called it ‘the things I think about before I fall asleep’.

Who is your favorite author(s)?  Tough call. I like Terry Pratchett as a comfort read, PG Wodehouse for uncontrollable giggles and all sorts chick lit for fun. At the moment I’m reading a lot of books published by Choc Lit – I’m particularly partial to Jane Lovering’s brand of dark humour and Henriette Gyland’s romantic suspense.

Walk us through your editing/writing/editing process:  Are you sure? It’s going to be a long answer. Best get yourself a cup of tea. Okay? Ready?  It goes: Have Idea. Get excited. Eat chocolate to celebrate the fact that the muse hasn’t died while I was writing the previous book. Try not to think too hard about the Idea in case it runs away.

After a few days of circling it, sneak up on the Idea and pounce on it. Figure out a character for the Idea to fit into. Come up with a semblance of plot. Write it down as a series of scenes. Colour code it by characters or plots or themes, doesn’t matter which, so long as it’s colourful. Send to writing buddy. Eat chocolate.

Apologise for giving her a migraine and send the document again without the colour coding. Redo plot based on feedback.

Start writing. Despair that the characters don’t sound real. Write some more in a chocolate fuelled frenzy, hoping to write myself out of  the problem. Get slightly desperate and write off into tangents.

Look at earlier plot (with the colourcoding because it doesn’t give me a headache!). Decide it’s a load of rubbish. The Idea was a dud. The characters are vegetables, and there is no way on earth this pile of steaming dung is going to make a decent book, who was I kidding thinking I could write anyway?

Cry.

Get annoyed because writing buddy is not sharing my angst and has told me to stop feeling sorry for myself and get back to it. Eat chocolate. Maybe cry a bit more.

Decide I may as well take writing buddy’s advice and start writing again. Completely unexpectedly, write a scene that totally comes alive. The characters are finally speaking to me! Walk around grinning, start saying the odd line of dialogue out aloud without meaning to (frighten husband a bit, but hope he’s getting used to it by now). Write like crazy in case the characters go away again. No time for chocolate now, so hopefully, lose weight.

Have a sudden realization that I’ve written a story that’s pretty accurate to the first plot I did. Chide myself about all the time wasted moping about. Eat chocolate.

Type ‘The End’. Jump around a bit. Bake cakes with the kids. Eat cake. Think about joining a gym or something.

After a few weeks, reread the draft. Cringe. (Cue Chocolate again). Get Save the Cat out. Figure out the spine of the story and straighten it. Cut out a few thousand words, add in a few thousand other words. Tinker around a bit more until the very thought of the book makes me ill. Send to writing buddy to critique.

Try not to think about what the feedback will be. Fail. Eat chocolate. Maybe progress to cake.

Receive feedback. Get annoyed. Eat whatever confectionary I can get my hands on. Grudgingly admit that she’s right. Chop out more scenes, add in different ones. Lose/amalgamate characters or storylines. Read the whole thing again. Decide that, actually, it was worth doing that second (third?) big edit because it’s much better now.

Have another read through. Decide that it’s good enough for other people to see. Submit.

Start to miss the feeling of people in my head. Worry that the muse has moved to Bermuda while I was working on the last book. Eat chocolate…

What did you do to celebrate your first book being published?  I can’t remember! (I was moving to the other side of the country, starting a new job and juggling a 3 year old and a baby at the time). I think DH and I went out for dinner. I definitely bought a celebratory cheesecake.

Are any of your characters based upon anyone you know?  I start with a sense of a character which I then have to flesh out. Sometimes I may add a few traits that I’ve mixed and matched from people I’ve met just to make them interesting, but they don’t come alive until I’ve written a few scenes. Those early scenes usually get edited out or rewritten completely by the end of the second draft, but they are essential for the characters to reveal themselves.

Who or what motivates you?  I’ve wanted to be a novelist for most of my life. That’s what motivates me. That and the hope that one day I’ll sit on a train and spot someone reading one of my books. Not very likely since both mine are ebooks right now, but one day…

If your books were turned into movies, who would you want to play the parts?  Ooh. Good question. I might need some time to think about this. And biscuits. I think is going to be Hobnobs type question. Excuse me a minute.

Right. A packet of Hobnobs and a pot of tea later, I have a list. You’ve got to love a list.

From Patently in Love:

Marshall – Matthew McConaughey. Lovely, lovely Matthew. I could watch him all day.

Jane – who cares. There’s Matthew McConaughey to watch. Oh, all right, someone sprightly with dark hair. Romola Garai with dark hair, maybe.

From Having a Ball

Stevie – Jenna Louise Coleman. No contest

Tom – I wrote it with a young Rufus Sewell in mind, so he could do it if we could get hold of a time machine. Failing that, Zachary Quinto.

Where do you see your writing career in five years?  Having a writing career is a long game. I’d like to have my books on physical bookshelves in five years’ time. That way, I might get a chance to spot someone on the train reading one.

I think I’ll still be working the day job, though.

What is the best advice you’ve been given?  Write what you enjoy reading.

Can you tell us about any of your upcoming projects?  I’m currently waiting to hear if a publisher has accepted my third novel ‘Dr January’, which is set in a microbiology lab. It’s about a girl who is being emotionally abused by her boyfriend. It’s the story of how she overcomes that and falls in love with her best friend (who’s been in love with her all along). The hero in this book (Hibs – whose real name is James) is my favourite of all my heroes. I think I’m a bit in love with him myself.

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M.K. Ducote

June 1, 2013 1 Comment

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About author, M.K. Ducote:  M.K. Ducote grew up in the small town of Davie, Florida. Eager to see more of the world, M.K. studied abroad in Melbourne, Tokyo and Paris as an undergraduate, studying business finance, art history and classics, and interned with Sotheby’s auction house in New York and Melbourne. The eternal scholar, M.K. went on to law school and studied international law and human rights in Cape Town and Lima, graduating with a J.D. from the University of Florida and an LL.M. from the University of Miami.

Having seen the world, M.K. settled down to practice law and met her husband, Chapman Ducote, a professional racecar driver and entrepreneur with over 14 career podiums under his belt.

Tossed into the exciting and scandalous world of motorsports, M.K. was enthralled by the behind-the-scenes drama. M.K. quickly turned to her life-long passion and set pen to paper, plucking from real life the colorful settings and scenes of her fiction series, Naked Paddock.

Each year, M.K. Ducote embraces her passion for travel and writing, accompanying her husband to racing circuits all over the world and gathering inspiration for her high-octane novels. When not on the road, the couple calls home to Miami Beach, Florida.

INTERVIEW

Describe yourself in five words:  Curious, playful, driven, thoughtful, messy.

Have you always liked to write?  Yes, it’s in my blood. Since I was five years old, I have written little short stories and have loved escaping into fiction. Every day that I work on Naked Paddock, I’m happy at my desk. It took eight years of school, two law degrees and a thriving law practice for me to realize that nothing else would be able to entertain or sustain me like writing, so I put my legal career on the shelf and dedicated myself to writing full-time.

 Who or what inspires you?  My initial inspiration to write came from my mom. She’s a great storyteller and when I was very young we used to make up stories to entertain each other. I think it was that foray into imagination that got me hooked on creating my own adventures on paper and bringing my own quirky characters to life. My inspiration to write a racing novel, however, came from my husband. When I first met Chapman, I knew nothing about racing. As I was thrown into the world of motorsports and started traveling to races with him, I was shocked. Fistfights, love affairs, lawsuits—the drama behind-the-scenes in the racing world is crazy! That’s when I realized I had an opportunity at my fingertips to open a new world to readers’ eyes and show them what really goes on behind-the-scenes. I started taking notes and collecting ideas from real life at the track and never looked back.

What made you want to write a book?  I’ve written short stories and poetry all my life, but in the past, no single idea captivated my attention for more than a short story. When I began traveling to races and saw the unending glamour and gossip of international motorsports, I knew I’d hit upon an idea and a world of characters that would entice me not only through a novel, but through an entire fiction series.

Walk us through a typical day in your life:  Typical Day? Those two words are foreign! On a day-to-day basis, I’m tossed in a lot of different directions. When I’m not traveling on the racing circuit, or filming for TV, or doing some last minute legal work for one of Chapman’s companies, then my days usually start at 9 (begrudgingly!) with a pot of tea for breakfast, and I’ll start writing right away in my pajamas. Around lunch, I’ll go to a café in Miami Beach (like Icebox or Olivers) by myself to eat and write a little more. In the afternoon, I’ll do some type of exercise—spinning, kickboxing, swimming or yoga, then cook dinner and watch an HBO show with Chapman (or try to sweet-talk him into an episode of Downton Abbey!). After that, it’s back to the book. My creativity seems to come alive between midnight and 3am. I love writing late at night when the world is sleeping. That’s definitely when I get my best work done.

What was the writing/editing/publishing process like for you?  I loved every minute of the writing process and it came very easily—what is writer’s block anyway? The editing process, on the other hand, was tortuous. I had two different editors, and it was a lot of push and pull to make everyone happy. As for the publishing process, it was a bit confusing in the beginning and took so much time, effort and research, that I ended up forming my own publishing company, so in the future I can help other authors through the process now that my feet are wet.

How did you come up with the title of your book?  Some people are initially confused by the title Naked Paddock because they associated the word “Paddock” with horses. In car racing, the Paddock is the area of the racetrack where the drivers hang out and where most of the drama takes place. I went through a series of working titles, but in the end I wanted to introduce a racing term right from the start and when we first hit upon Naked Paddock, Chapman and I looked at each other and knew we’d found it.

Where is your favorite writing location?  My favorite place to write is at whatever trackside hotel we happen to be staying at while Chapman practices with his team for the next race. For each Grand Prix, there are at least two or three days of practice and since his attention is completely absorbed with preparation, I get large blocks of free time to write. With racecars roaring around the track rattling the hotel walls and constant drama unfolding in the Paddock, I couldn’t ask for a better place to write!

What are you reading?  I’m always reading five or six books at a time. I devour everything from ancient Greek Tragedies and Ovid to classics by Tolstoy, Chekov, Austen, Fitzgerald and Hemingway to contemporary fiction like Gone Girl and Savages. I just finished re-reading Gone With the Wind, and lately, I’ve been reading everything I can find about great historical women, like Jackie Kennedy and Wallis Simpson.

 If “Naked Paddock” were turned into a movie who would you want to play the parts?  Actually, I think it would be quite cool to have real drivers in the parts. On the whole, professional racecar drivers are young, confident, sexy and used to constant media attention. So, Hollywood might be an easy step for them! Patrick Dempsey is a professional driver that we bump into at all the races. He really seems to love and understand the sub-culture of racing, so he would be great to have onboard.

What is it like to be married to a racecar driver?  It definitely keeps things interesting! It’s a lot of travel and suitcase living, which thankfully I love. Of course, when Chapman’s behind the wheel it’s nerve-wracking, but I delude myself into thinking that advances in safety equipment make the sport fairly safe. To be a racecar driver, you need to have a screw loose, and in general, drivers are a pretty passionate and eccentric lot, but they are also entertaining and exciting, which to me is worth the tradeoff!

Can you tell us about any upcoming projects?  Chapman and I have some exciting plans in the works for more reality TV and guest appearances in the near future, and we are organizing a book tour. I’m also working on the second novel in the Naked Paddock series (and loving every minute!), and Chapman is mid-season, so we’re traveling to all of his races and gathering more plot lines and drama for Books 2 and 3!

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“Naked Paddock” by M.K. Ducote

CHAPTER 1

PALM BEACH, FLORIDA

The Ferrari FXX lurched into sixth and for a split-second Palm Beach International Raceway was silent in the morning light. Then the gears of the 6.3-liter V12 bit and the Italian engine roared with violence down the straightaway toward Turn 10. The sky was robin’s egg blue and the only constant. Everything else blurred past the slim windows, stretched by speed.

“Ready for a real ride?” Coleton asked, checking on his passenger from the corner of his eye.

The man’s lips were pulled back into a grimace, and a drop of sweat had splattered the inside of his visor, but his dark eyes glimmered. Coleton piloted through the double apex corner, then slapped the transmission paddle into fourth with more force than necessary.

“Let’s give the nanny a break, shall we?”

Coleton leaned into the Momo five-point harness and switched the Manettino system to Race. To the untrained eye, nothing had changed, but Coleton felt the smallest shudder through the wheel. Ahhhh…Pure Driving Experience.

With a flick of the wrist he had disabled the ABS system, which prevents wheel lock under heavy braking, and various other safety measures and driver aids, relying on nothing but his own skill and confidence to keep the machine under control. Coleton coaxed the FXX even faster, opening her up and letting her run reckless like a thoroughbred on its first hot lap.

The rev limiter danced dangerously at 8000 rpms. His car was the only rig racing at PBIR that Thursday, but Coleton protected his line and pushed through the corners like he was fighting for the Championship at Atlanta with one lap left.

Like all racecar drivers, Coleton detested the “nanny” systems installed on today’s supercars. These “electronic safety nets” are designed to safeguard normal drivers from the power of Formula 1 technology and protect against liability suits. Professional drivers, however, hate any dilution of complete control and are generally faster without them. Coleton was here to drive the FXX—not babysit the thing.

After one more hot lap around the 2.25-mile circuit, Coleton peeled off into pit lane and pressed his thumb on the Limiter button. The car instantly fell to 60 kph. The sound of the engine dropped to a low, chugging growl. The men could breathe more easily, and peripheral objects slid back into view, sharp and clear.

“See this button?” Coleton asked. The passenger nodded. “This button drops the gas to the engine and slows us down to the Pit Speed Limit. In a race, you get a penalty if you come into the pits too quickly.”

The passenger nodded again, but Coleton doubted he was processing any information yet. His eyes were glazed, and his brain was still a swamp of adrenaline.

The instant the Ferrari FXX halted in the pits, people swarmed around it. Beyond the low pit wall, two models with identical blonde hair that fell to their waists jumped up and down in tiny leaps, clapping their hands with glee. One slid a diamond-studded iPhone from the back pocket of her cut-offs and took a picture of the car.

Coleton pulled his door handle, and the gull-wing door folded upward. He popped his five-point harness and ducked under the shoulder strap. At six feet, he was tall for a racing driver. His shoulders were strong and wide and tapered down to a narrow waist. Coleton was naturally athletic and built for speed like an Olympic sprinter, whereas most other endurance drivers looked like marathoners. When he worked out he had to be careful not to bulk up so he could fit in the cockpit. He swung his legs over the wide doorsill and hopped into the sunlight.

The passenger wasn’t having such an easy time. He struggled to untangle the harness until Nicolas “Nico” Costa came over to help him. Once free of the belts, he stuck both legs out the door, but the doorsill was too wide for his feet to reach the ground. The fat man wiggled them up and down as he waited to be extricated. Nico motioned to one of his dealership employees, and it took both of them, working together, to hoist him out like a cadaver—feet first.

Nico owned Ferrari Fort Lauderdale, one of the largest Ferrari dealerships in the country. Sometimes he gained access to rare Ferrari supercars, but seldom could he convince even the richest buyer to cough up over a million dollars for candy they hadn’t tasted. So, a few times a year he rented out PBIR for the day, and brought in a professional to give the buyer a bat-out-of-hell ride and a glimpse of what he could own. It was great PR, but he needed a good driver to prove the product.

Nico and Coleton had been friends for years, since before Nico ever dreamed of owning a dealership, when he was a senior studying business at the University of Miami during the week and playing on Miami Beach on the weekend. Nico’s father, a Greek shipping magnate, agreed to bankroll the dealership, partly in hopes of making a businessman of his middle son, and partly as a way to guarantee himself access to the world’s most exotic cars. For certain limited production supercars it doesn’t matter how much money you put on the table; it’s connections that secure the keys.

When the sparkle of this sale first surfaced, Nico knew Coleton was the driver for the job. Ferrari agreed to fly in one FXX from Italy for a single track day. Nico didn’t have much time to close the deal.

Coleton unzipped the top of his racing suit to let in some air, and pushed his sweaty dark hair back off his brow. His face was classically handsome, and he knew it: high forehead, straight nose, full lips. His emerald eyes were startling at first glance, not hazel, but full-fledged green.

“Water?” Nico asked.

“Thanks.”

In the distance, Coleton heard a low muted rumble. “Is that thunder?” he asked, turning. A few dark clouds had begun to gather in the east.

“Welcome to South Florida,” Nico said. “Where storms roll in quick, and the money rolls in quicker.”

“You’re such a cheese ball,” Coleton laughed.

Nico wiped sweat from his brow. His face was full and soft, with deep-set eyes. He wore his unruly hair thick and parted in the middle. The collars of his polo shirts were always popped upward, and he was rarely seen without a sweater draped around his shoulders—even on sweltering days like this one.

Coleton squinted at the bottle in his hand. “Do I look like a spring water kind of guy?” He tossed it back to Nico.

“What’s wrong with spring water?”

“Nothing, if you don’t mind drinking water animals have been pissing in for the past hundred years.”

Coleton walked over to the bag that carried his racing gear and searched around in the bottom. He pulled out a bottle of Essentia.

“What’s the difference?”

“That’s like asking what’s the difference between a taxi cab and my 1100 horsepower racing machine. Essentia water is purified by reverse osmosis, infused with electrolytes, alkalinized to 9.5pH and restructured using Ionic Separation Technology.”

“Do you have any idea how anal retentive you are?”

“I’m a professional athlete.” Coleton smiled his perfect print-ad smile, tilted back his head and took a long sip.

“I mean, the fact that you carry all that information around in your brain. It’s disturbing.”

“It’s probably why my body looks like a temple, and yours, well, could use a little work.” Coleton poked Nico in the stomach.

Panting, the buyer waddled up to them, still trying to connect the two sides of the built-in belt on his new Ferrari race suit, but they were too short to meet over his protruding belly. The models trailed behind him, their legs impossibly long, like stilted circus performers.

“That was amazing. Really amazing. We went fast!” he said, eyes gleaming. He had shaggy black hair, olive skin and the soft look of a man unaccustomed to manual labor.

“That wasn’t fast,” Coleton said distractedly, as he and Nico stared past him at the models. They were giggling and whispering in each other’s ears.

“I think now I try,” the buyer said, stroking his cropped black mustache.

“Oh, that wouldn’t be possible,” Coleton said. “There’s no—” Nico grabbed Coleton by the shoulder before he could say another word.

“Come here,” he hissed. He pulled Coleton into the catering tent. Behind them, one of the models tugged on the tab of the buyer’s collar, while the other pinched his wide nose playfully.

“Look, Al-Aziz is Saudi money, okay? Stupid money. He’s a prince for Chrissakes. If he likes this car he’s going to order two more for his cousins. He owns—”

“Aren’t there only 29 of these in the world?” Coleton interrupted. He tipped his head back for another sip of water.

“Thirty.”

“How did you manage to get your hands on three?”

“I didn’t. Not yet. But, I will. I had to put my ass on the line to get this one flown over. Tonight it gets sent back to Maranello. If we don’t make this happen now, I’m jeopardizing my whole relationship with Ferrari.”

“It’s getting late in the day,” Coleton said, lifting his eyes to the darkening cumulus clouds. “That storm’s really moving in.”

“Al-Aziz just bought an indoor racetrack in Dubai, modeled after the Monte Carlo Formula 1 track,” Nico continued. “An indoor racetrack, man! The power of this car is intoxicating. Four laps behind the wheel and he’ll be sold.”

Coleton shook his head and moved to a folding table where he had left his helmet bag. “You’re out of your mind if you think I’m getting in a car with that yokel at the wheel.”

Unzipping a side compartment, Coleton pulled out his BlackBerry. He quickly checked his text messages. Nothing earthshattering. Then, opened his voicemails. One new message from a number he didn’t recognize.

“Listen to me—” Nico began. Coleton raised his index finger, then held the phone to his ear and played the message.

“Hi Coleton?” a female voice asked. She sounded both perky and nervous, as if she had consumed a pot of coffee before breakfast. “This is Candice. From last night. Your housekeeper let me out. I had a great time. We should do it again. I realized I never gave you my number. It’s 305—”

Coleton hit the delete button and dropped his phone back into his helmet bag. He turned to Nico and raised his dark eyebrows in a make-it-quick look.

“Al-Aziz will take it slow,” Nico said. “I know that he—”

Coleton cut him off. “Forget it. I’m not risking a shunt in the off season for some rich asshole.” Coleton’s green eyes glimmered. “Not even for a ‘prince.’” Coleton made air quotes around the word. He picked up his helmet to pack it away. Nico glared at him.

“Listen—Al-Aziz used to drive Rally cars somewhere in the Middle East. He knows something about driving. It’ll be fine.” Nico grabbed the helmet from Coleton’s hand and shook it at him for emphasis. “Just get in the car!”

“Just because he drove a Jeep in the desert doesn’t mean he can drive one of the fastest cars on the planet. You want your sale?” Coleton asked. “Then you take him!”

“You know I can’t take him. You can tell him what to do, how to take the corners, everything. He’ll listen. Besides, he wants to drive with you. His son has a poster of you on his bedroom wall.”

“Not going to happen,” Coleton said. His voice was quiet, but he looked Nico right in the eye. “To that guy, this is all just a video game.” Coleton motioned at the fire red Ferrari and the racetrack beyond. “Just a lap in Forza 4.”

Then, Nico brightened with an idea. “I’ll cut you in on the sale.”

That was the magic incantation, and they both knew it.

“No,” Coleton said, grabbing his helmet back. “You’ll cut me in on all three sales.”

A wide white smile lit up Coleton’s face. The kind of smile that gets what it wants.

“Ten percent,” Nico offered.

“Twenty,” Coleton said.

“Fifteen and no more.”

“Where do you own ‘em?”

“One point seven each,” Nico said through a smile, then bobbed his head. “And, he’s paying two.”

“Two million for a car that isn’t even street legal?” Coleton whistled. He did some quick calculations in his head. He wasn’t a math genius, but when it came to money Coleton could be quick on his feet.

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“Four laps. That’s it. For a hundred and thirty-five grand I’ll eat a little shit,” Coleton snickered as he pulled on his fireproof balaclava, then his helmet. Coleton loved when things fell in his lap.

ou must get some serious ass,” said Al-Aziz, turning to Coleton. “Come on, you can tell me.”

With three laps under their belt, Coleton began to relax. One Hundred and Thirty-Five Grand. For each corner, he had showed Al-Aziz brake markers long before the ones he used, and Al-Aziz had done well.

“Eyes on the road, Your Highness,” Coleton instructed. “Into Turn 4, stay far to the right, then turn in for a late apex and clip the curb. See that red and while curbing?” Al-Aziz nodded.

Al-Aziz had really picked up his pace on the last lap, and Coleton was surprised by his creeping boldness. Maybe he was more experienced than Coleton gave him credit for and was finally settling in.

“Good,” Coleton said, as they coasted through the corner. “Now make the right-hander through Turn 5. Go ahead and shift up to third.”

“Too slow.” Al-Aziz giggled. He paused at third before pushing the car into fourth, and the engine wailed an octave higher. Turn 5 came fast, but Al-Aziz managed the speed through as the RPMs dropped. He picked it back up, accelerating down the short straight. The speedometer waved to 80.

“Take third,” Coleton instructed. He shifted his weight uneasily.

Al-Aziz pretended not to hear. Then mid-corner, he realized Coleton was right. He shifted down to third quickly, but the car still squirmed beneath them.

“Turn 7 is tricky,” Coleton warned, his voice rising. Al-Aziz snuck back to fourth. “Slow down,” Coleton ordered, as the car launched over an undulation in the pavement.

“I only go one way and that’s up!” Al-Aziz shouted. The rear of the car skidded sideways, but Al-Aziz juggled the steering wheel and made it through the left right complex. His eyes were wide and bulging, as he pushed into the sweeping right-hander of Turn 8.

“Easy!” Coleton yelled. They narrowly missed fishtailing into the wall at the exit of Turn 8.

Coleton watched the tachometer wave into the red. Al-Aziz shifted to fifth, redlined, then sixth. They roared down the longest straight: 120, 130, 140, the fastest speed of his session.

“Okay, you got your speed. Shift back to fifth, fourth, slow down,” Coleton demanded. A drop of rain splattered the windshield. 150, 160. “Slow down, now!” Al-Aziz would need to brake earlier and softer because of the changing weather conditions.

Suddenly it struck Coleton. This asshole wanted to hit 180. Probably all day he’d held it in his mind, the roundness of it, like a hot babe. A mile every 20 seconds. Now the pitch of the roaring engine swept higher. 160, 170. This was Al-Aziz’s last chance to see the needle sweep across the dial to his target. He was going for it, and there was no way for Coleton to stop him. 175…

“Brake, now!” Coleton screamed over the shrieking engine. On instinct his foot shot out and hit the foot well where the brake would have been, if he had been driving. They were coming in too hot. Way too hot for the wet conditions.

All professional racecar drivers have crashed, big. It’s not a question of if, it’s a question of when. Coleton’s crashes fell under many categories: embarrassing, stupid, dangerous, asshole-puckering, and then there was that one crash two years ago—life threatening. Like his peers, Coleton could recall every intimate detail of each crash sequence. Even years later, he could describe a two-second crash with intense clarity: what he saw, heard, smelled. He was about to add another slow motion video to his mental library.

Al-Aziz nailed the brakes, and Coleton felt the wheels lock instantly. Recognition dawned. Without even a glance at the F1 style switches, Coleton knew what was happening, frame by frame. He had forgotten to switch the Manettino off its Race setting, and the anti-lock braking system was disengaged.

When the wheels of a car lock under heavy braking, professional drivers do the opposite of what human nature dictates: they release them gently, and can vaguely feel through the pedal the level of adhesion available to the tire. They keep just enough pressure on the pedal to extract every iota of tire adhesion before the tires lock and a slide begins. No more. No less.

An amateur, on the hand, hits the brakes as hard as possible, aggressively trying to stop. Once the car starts to slide, an amateur never unlocks the wheels, which would allow the tire to rotate and use its adhesion capabilities to slow the car. The first mistake induces fear, which brings on panic and then the whole cataclysmic effect takes hold. Control is lost. Physics takes charge.

Al-Aziz’s leg locked into place on the brake, as if trying to thrust the pedal through the floor. His brown knuckles went white, clenching the wheel. The huge Brembo brake calipers clamped like sharks teeth on the ceramic rotors, the wheels locked, the Ferrari slid.

Coleton knew they were going into the wall at the end of the straight. He also knew once they slid off the track the wet grass would accelerate their momentum. Physics. The 2,600 lb Ferrari flew off the asphalt and through the Michelin trackside banner like a bobsled on an Olympic run.

“Release the brakes and pitch the car!” Coleton yelled. “Turn the wheel!”

By throwing the car sideways at the last instant, a pro driver can enhance the deceleration and change the trajectory to a side impact. The broader surface area of a side impact dissipates more energy and reduces the severity of a crash.

Al-Aziz remained frozen, unable to process the order. His eyes stared straight ahead. Out the windshield, Coleton saw the Armco barrier approach, frame by frame.

“Fuck me,” Coleton hissed.

Coleton spent most of his time in lightweight prototypes that slowed more quickly even when out of control and off of the racing surface. He had forgotten how much weight becomes the enemy in racing. The Ferrari was like a red missile careening into the wall.

The markings of prior visitors came into focus. Rubber marks, green paint, yellow paint, missing chunks of concrete the size of a fist. Maybe the others walked away unscathed, Coleton thought briefly. Maybe.

The wall grew larger. Click. Click. Click. His memory registered every frame.

“Hands off the wheel!” Coleton screamed the instant before impact, yet another counterintuitive step a pro driver takes a millisecond before going in hard to prevent a matched set of broken arms.

Al-Aziz released the wheel, as if electrified, all ten fingers extended in the air.

The initial crunch was surreal in its gentleness, as the bumper disintegrated. The front-mounted radiators exploded. The hood flew off as the Ferrari continued to compress into the Armco. Like taking a stack of crackers and bashing them with your fist on the counter, the bits and pieces disintegrated while debris shot outward: pieces of glass, shards of carbon fiber, bent aluminum from the chassis.

Coleton heard that familiar initial crunch, smelt the steam from the burst radiators. He could feel the mounting points rip out of the carbon fiber monocoque chassis. Then…

BANG.

Coleton felt the jolt and knew exactly what it meant. The expendable front of the car had been destroyed, its parts dissipating energy as the car slammed forward with huge kinetic force. Then came the last stand, Ferrari’s Alamo, the safety tub: the thick carbon fiber structural element designed to stop the accordion effect of a frontal crash. The fist obliterating the crackers suddenly met the granite countertop. After thousands of engineering hours, the tub did what it was supposed to do.

The Ferrari stopped dead. The sudden stop with his right foot deep in the foot well shot fiery pain through Coleton’s leg. There was a hiss of steam as hot fluids dripped into the wet grass. Then silence. Complete silence. Just the faint sound of a few raindrops splattering the wad of carbon fiber and steel that used to be a state-of-the-art Ferrari. Super toy for the super rich.

“You alright?” Coleton yelled, grimacing. The engine had cut out and his words came out louder than he expected.

Al-Aziz grunted and let out a string of words Coleton didn’t understand.

“Yes or no?”

“Yeah…I think so,” Al-Aziz said, his voice groggy.

“Your arms?”

“Good.”

“You’re lucky,” Coleton said, as he pulled his harness release. “Somebody would’ve been wiping your ass for the next two months.”

Coleton pulled the door handle but it stuck. He forced the wing-like door upward, and swung his legs over the doorsill. Electric pain shot up his right leg. Using his triceps he hoisted himself onto the doorsill. Then, he braced himself against the car and stood up on his left leg. He took a breath and tested the sole of his right foot on the ground like a lame horse. Pain exploded up his calf and the metallic taste he’d met more than a few times flooded his mouth. He lifted his foot off the ground, suddenly queasy, and knew. It’s broken.

Coleton ducked his head to see Al-Aziz fiddling with his harness. He was in shock, but he appeared to be fine. Let the paramedics pull the fat bastard out.

Although carbon fiber shards littered the track, there was no fire risk. Coleton hopped away from the wreck, right leg cocked at a right angle, and sat on a stack of tires that made up part of the crash barrier. He felt his temperature rising with the pain, the first prickle of sweat, as a few drops of cold rain needled his scalp.

Nico tumbled out of the pit truck, his legs moving before they hit the ground. He looked at Al-Aziz still buckled in the driver’s seat, but ran straight to Coleton. Coleton pointed to his right leg and shook his head.

“Is it broken?”

“Pretty much.” Coleton shrugged.

“Maybe it’s just a sprain. Let’s get you to the hospital.”

“It’s not my first rodeo, Nico.” Coleton looked him in the eye.

Coleton lay in the bed of the pit truck and they rumbled down the track toward the pits. He watched the paramedics struggle with Al-Aziz, pulling him from the driver’s seat headfirst. Coleton squeezed his eyes shut and cut the scene from view. Fat Bastard.

The truck shuddered to a stop on pit lane.

“Bring my car around,” Coleton demanded, as Nico appeared at the tailgate.

“There’s another ambulance on the way,” Nico offered. “It should be here any minute. They’ll check your leg out and take you to the hospital.”

“It’s broken. I told you. The paramedics aren’t going to fix it. My keys are in my helmet bag. I’m not leaving my car here.”

Nico recognized Coleton’s tone of voice and knew there was no use digging his heels in. Nico pulled Coleton’s silver Ferrari F12 streetcar next to the truck, hopped out and opened the passenger door for him.

“What are you doing?” Coleton asked, still sitting on the tailgate of the truck. Nico looked at him blankly. “You think I’m letting you drive? I’m driving.”

“Your leg is broken,” Nico scoffed.

“You think I don’t know that?”

Using Nico’s shoulder as a crutch, Coleton hopped to the car and lowered himself in. His leg was throbbing. He needed ice. But there, behind the wheel and in control, he immediately felt better. Nico got in the passenger seat and shrugged at his dealership employees as they stared open mouthed.

The F12 had a paddle shifter rather than a traditional gated Ferrari shifter with a separate clutch, so Coleton could drive it even with one leg. He had always complained that with paddles the F12 didn’t stay true to the Ferrari tradition. Coleton was a purist in some respects and enjoyed heel-toe shifting. Then, why would he buy an F12, which only comes with paddles? Coleton’s quick retort was always, “Because, it’s the best.”

They bumped along the road through the gates of PBIR. The rear tires of the F12 spun out, spitting gravel as they fishtailed onto Beeline Highway and sped past the Pratt and Whitney factory.

Coleton had always loved lines. Lines like that black delineation between playing it safe and turning your lights out. Riding those lines is always dangerous, and Coleton knew it. But, he also knew exactly where they lay and he loved playing with them. He loved taking a car just to the edge of out-of-control and keeping it there. So, driving at 98 mph on a public road with his left foot, while his right foot lay broken on the plush prancing horse floor mat wasn’t even close to the edge. That was business as usual.

Twenty-two minutes later, they arrived at Good Samaritan hospital in West Palm Beach. Coleton pulled up to the Emergency Room entrance and revved the engine. It roared under the covered entranceway. The sliding glass doors opened and an attendant stuck his head out. He let out a long, low whistle at the car.

“We need a wheelchair, please,” Nico called. The man nodded his head and disappeared. Returning with one, he wheeled it out the doors toward Nico in the passenger seat.

“Not for me, for him.” Nico nodded at Coleton. The man looked confused, but wheeled the chair around to the driver’s side. Coleton smiled at the man’s disbelief, as Nico pulled him up out of the seat and into the wheelchair.

Nico wheeled Coleton through the sliding doors into the cold, sterile entrance. Everyone in the waiting room stared, not expecting to see a man in a full, Ferrari-red racing suit on a random Thursday afternoon.

“Name, please,” said a woman behind the desk, looking over her glasses.

“This is Coleton Loren,” Nico said.

“Oh, are you a race car driver?” She stood up to get a better look.

“What gave you that idea, sweetheart?” Coleton asked, giving her a good-natured wink.

The woman rolled her eyes, but a smile tugged at her lips. “Have a seat. And fill out these forms.” She passed a clipboard through the slim opening in the glass to Nico.

Coleton’s phone rang. He pulled his BlackBerry out of the jumpsuit hip pocket, and saw the name Ira Goldstein on the screen. Coleton stared in disbelief. Already? Unbelievable!

“What?” Coleton answered.

“Are you kidding me?” Ira asked. “You broke your leg?”

“How the hell do you know that already?”

“I’ve got ears,” Ira said smugly. “You break your leg and your agent has to hear about it from someone else?”

“Calm down, asshole. It only happened half an hour ago. Hey, I gotta go. They’re ready for me,” Coleton lied.

“Where are you?”

“Good Sam.”

“I’m coming over.”

“Like hell you are. You have a plane to catch. And, Ira?”

“Yeah?”

“Try not to piss off Arthur Elrod. I want to race for Elrod Racing next year, and with the $10 million we have in sponsorship from Miller Sunglasses it should be a lay-up deal.”

“Piece of cake. I’ll be back Sunday and we can meet at the Breakers for brunch to celebrate.”

“Why is everything with you about food?” Coleton asked with a smirk. “Fine. But, if you screw up the meeting tomorrow, Ira, so help me God, you may as well stay in New York.” Coleton didn’t wait for a response or a parting farewell before he hung up. He dropped his phone back to his lap. “Great. The word’s out about my leg.”

“Maybe Ira’ll keep it quiet,” Nico said.

“Are we talking about the same guy? The last time Ira stopped talking was in 1983 when he got his tonsils out,” Coleton said, but Nico had already checked out of the conversation and was reading emails on his phone.

Coleton massaged his thigh muscle. The pain was creeping upward.

“Make yourself useful, will ya? Get me something to read.”

Nico continued to stare at his phone. He finished his sentence, then looked up. “What’s that?”

“Get me a magazine.”

Nico strolled over to the wall, perused the clear plastic rack and returned with a tattered magazine.

“Really?” Coleton asked. “Good Housekeeping?”

“It’s all they’ve got,” Nico laughed.

“Sure,” Coleton said, but flipped through it. He needed something to divert him from the pain.

“Coleton Loren?” called a nurse with curly, dirty-blonde hair and navy scrubs.

“It’s pronounced LO-ren, not Lauren. It’s French,” Coleton said.

She looked down at her clipboard and adjusted her glasses. They were attached to a thin silver chain that looped her neck, and the movement sent the chains swinging.

“Whatever you say, Hero.”

After Coleton convinced the nurse, whose name he’d learned was Margaret, that his leg was broken, she wheeled him straight to Radiology for X-rays. She then took him to an exam room and checked his temperature, pulse and blood pressure. When she began to pull up the leg of his racing suit, Coleton winced in pain.

“Okay, then. We’ll do it the hard way.”

Margaret unwrapped a pair of surgical scissors from a metal tray and set them to the edge of his pant leg.

“Are you crazy?” Coleton demanded, pulling his leg out of her hand and flinching again. “This is a five thousand dollar racing suit!”

“Fine,” she said curtly. “Put this on however you want.” She handed him a thin gown with small blue hearts scattered across the fabric. She picked up his chart and made a few notes.

Coleton unzipped the front of his suit and pulled it off his shoulders and down to his waist, exposing the fireproof Nomex long underwear underneath.

“Fair warning, Marge,” he said, as he pulled the long-sleeved Nomex shirt over his head and exposed a muscled torso. “I’m not wearing underwear.”

Coleton started to push the suit down past his waist. With a shake of her head, Margaret dropped his chart in a clear plastic box on the wall and left the room, but not without one last stolen glance.

Coleton managed to get the suit entirely off, except for the right pant leg. He was having a hard time pulling the suit over his toes without igniting fire in his ankle.

The door swung open, and Coleton froze. A beautiful woman in her mid-20s with long, straight blonde hair walked into the room, studying a clipboard. She didn’t look up as she shut the door. She was wearing purple scrubs under a long white lab coat.

“Okay, Mr. Loren. How are we doing today?” she asked, looking up.

“I’m naked,” said Coleton. “How are you?”

“Whoops,” she said, laughing. She held up the clipboard to cover her eyes. “I’ll give you some privacy while you work that out.”

Coleton laughed.

“No, wait…help me.”

She lowered the clipboard to her nose. Her eyes were large and bright blue.

“Can you just pull this pant leg off, please?” Coleton asked.

She grabbed the gown from the tray next to him, shook it open and handed it to him. Coleton leaned back on his elbows, extending his leg into the air. She gently pulled the suit over his foot, then turned her back while he finished putting on the gown.

“Okay, done,” he said. She turned around.

“Right. I’m Dr. Harlow.” She held out her hand.

“Sorry if I startled you,” he said.

“It was nothing.”

“Nothing?” he asked. He was still holding her hand. “I think I’ve just been insulted.”

She pulled her hand away.

“Are you sure you’re a doctor? You’re too hot.”

“I’m a Resident,” she told him. “How about you? First time driving?”

“How tall are you?” he demanded.

“Why don’t you let me do the physical?”

“It’s just a question.”

“I’m 5’11,” she said. “Please lie back.”

“That’s a great height.”

“Let’s see, did the nurse check for HPI?” she asked, more to herself than to him, as she flipped through his chart.

“Oh God, I hope I don’t have that.”

“It means History of Present Illness,” she said, trying to hide her smile. “Have you broken bones before?”

“I’ve broken everything except my femurs,” Coleton said proudly. “Arms. Toes. Fingers. Ankles. Almost every rib, compressed some vertebrae, you name it. I even fractured my skull once.”

“There’s an achievement,” Camilla said. She sat on a rolling stool, slid in front of a computer and entered some notes in the PATS software. Her fingers clicked on the keys. “Could explain a lot.”

“Occupational hazard,” he said.

“You’re a racecar driver?” she asked, nodding at the suit that lay in a heap on the floor. “Were you in a race today?”

“No. I mean, yes, I’m a racecar driver, but the season doesn’t start until March.”

“So, you drive in circles really fast, risk your life and end up in the same place you started?” she asked, turning her head to blink at him.

“It looks more glamorous on TV.”

“If you say so,” Camilla said, standing. She bent over his leg. “Let’s take a look.”

“It’s the other leg,” said Coleton.

She startled, then glanced at his chart.

“Ha, made you look,” he said, grinning.

She shook her head slightly and rolled her eyes. “I bet that works every night at the Holiday Inn bar.”

“You wouldn’t believe.”

Coleton’s leg was swollen and his ankle was turning purple, but no bones had broken the skin.

“Is the pain radiating?”

“Of course. It’s broken,” he said with authority. She raised an eyebrow and tilted her head.

“Let’s see if your X-rays are in the system yet.” Dr. Harlow went to the computer, clicked on a tab and an X-ray of Coleton’s leg appeared on the screen. She leaned in to study it, then angled it toward Coleton.

“Your tibia is broken in two places. See here?” She pointed to two thin lines on the X-ray that Coleton could barely see. “But, they’re only hairline fractures.”

“Motherf—!” Coleton started, but reined himself in, his voice dropping off. “How long will they take to heal?”

“They aren’t too messy. I’d say you’ll be weight-bearing in two months. But, I’ll have the orthopedist come downstairs and take a second look, since you’re an athlete.”

“I’ll be walking in six weeks.”

“Excuse me?” she said. “You’ll walk when we say it’s safe. Until then, I hope you have a comfy chair.”

“Honey, testing starts the end of January. My comfy chair will be the driver’s seat of an 1100 horsepower LMP1 Prototype.” His voice softened. “This is my career. This is what I do.”

She sighed, but humored him. “Testing?”

“Practice laps before the season starts. You ever been to a race? I could get you some passes. After all, you never know when I might need my doctor.”

“First things first.” She made some notes on his chart before placing it back in the plastic box on the wall. “What color do you want your cast?”

“Tell you what. I’ll let you pick the color if you go to dinner with me.”

“Okay, Hotshot. Get the pink,” she said. She extended her hand to Coleton, and he held it a moment longer than necessary. “Someone will be in shortly.” She smiled politely, then left the room.

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Nikki Mahood

May 21, 2013 6 Comments

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About author, Nikki Mahood:  Nikki Mahood was born in Dublin, moving to the UK in the late eighties as a child, she has resided in North Yorkshire ever since.  Distance didn’t just make her heart grow fonder, it made her mind grow too, her grandmother provided the stationary, usually adorned with Ponies of some sort and they wrote to each other regularly.  So began her writing career, starting with silly poems to send her family and nurtured by a love of reading, her overactive imagination and an obsession with Josephine March of Little Women.

Without setting out to write a book, a taster course for The Open University brought Fallon Magee into Nikki’s imagination, followed shortly by one Abner Hagarth-Smythe and suddenly what started as a character exercise became a novel.

After two years of unsuccessful submissions, the idea of self publishing was raised and so began the evolution of Fallen from a manuscript, to a novel, to a Kindle, hopefully yours too.

Nikki works full time and writes whenever possible, watches far too many movies and dedicates a good hour a day to scrolling through Pinterest…

INTERVIEW

Why do you write?  I write because I don’t know what to do with myself if I don’t. I work full time and write whenever I can.  I think Josephine March (from Little Women) really inspired me, my Mum gave me the book as a child and I’ve read it at least once a year ever since.  I see a lot of myself in Jo, not least the writing side of her.

Who is your favorite author?  Hmm, this is difficult, I’ve met so many awesome authors lately, via social media, I read everything that Carey Heywood writes and am a huge fan! Historically I devoured every Patricia Cornwell and Freya North book going and I still read Freyas.  I guess I can’t nail one down universally, it’s absolutely subjective to my mood on any given day.

What was the writing/editing/publishing process like for you?   I went into the whole self publishing thing after a frustrating couple of years of submissions. I was so proud of myself for completing Fallen that I thought the pro-forma letters sent by Agents very tough.  With Fallen I was very arrogant, stuck it on Lulu, made family buy it and didn’t really do much else, expecting people to find it, buy it and make it into a movie.  Being accepted into Chicklit Goddesses has helped me realise that I’m responsible for a lot, editing and proofing, something I’ve done alone so far and my reviews proved it to a detriment to my writing.  I’m going to do it properly this year with Forgotten!

Hard/paperback or eBooks?  Any books!! Any media, reading is what’s important. Whatever you read, reading can only expand your mind and give you a drive to do things you might not have tried otherwise. I know that if I have children I will do exactly the same as my Mum did and get them reading Classics from a young age.

Where is your ideal writing location?   A coffee shop, my laptop on the table and a steaming mug of coffee in front of me! Sunday mornings used to be great for that, but my lactose intolerance put pay to my latte habit!

How many drafts of your books do you typically write before they’re published?  I’m kind of strange, I write blocks in documents and try sew it all together at the last minute, I’m learning that isn’t maybe the best way of doing it! I do change each chunk on a daily basis, a lot of evolution happens to my characters from the initial writing to the completion of the story.

What’s on your desk?  Notepads, a 8/9 inch pile of them! A folio I bought on a whim too! Oh and graffiti, my desk is an old school desk, with the lid and storage bit and all!

If you’re not writing, then you’re probably…:  Watching a movie, reading or at work, not in that order!!

A writer must have…:  Incredibly supportive friends and family, who do stupid things that you can rip off for your books. Most of the silly stories in my books are real things that I’ve altered to suit. That and a lot of equipment, I use my phone, tablet, laptop and notebooks all the time, that’s why it takes me so long to write a book. Because I’ve got stuff everywhere!

What is your favorite word?  I don’t know if I can swear here, if I can, its Bollocks, I love that word and if I can’t, its Epic, which I overuse and sound stupid and undereducated doing so!

Can you tell us about any of your upcoming projects?  I’m starting to knit together the third book in my series, Forgotten, I’m hoping to release it in the summertime, its sticking with Fallon and Abner, but skips forward about five years from where we left them in Forever. A lot has changed for them, and its happening again, possibly worse too! Its become a labour of love as I’m not sure I’ve made the right choices for my characters, because I forget that they aren’t real people. I’ve connected with a lot of people who have suffered major brain traumas via the charity Headway. They’re inspiring and I hope to be able to do them justice, there are a lot of people out there living every day with the devastating effects of traumatic brain injurys.

Nikki’s books!

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**Contact Nikki!:  Website   Facebook   Twitter   Amazon

**Additional comments by Nikki!:  I want to thank Isabella for having me here and for founding the Chicklit Goddesses group on Facebook. I can’t say enough the value of having a network of such supportive and inspirational writers to bounce ideas off and even just to moan at.  There’s no underestimating the power of that when you’re the minority in your friends and family, even community.

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Leigh Bennett

May 16, 2013 1 Comment

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About author, Leigh Bennett:  Leigh Bennett is an Australian author who lives in Melbourne’s Dandenong Ranges with her husband and three sons.  Her first chick lit novel, Flirting with Magick and was released in February 2013.  She is currently working on the next novel in the series, as well as a YA/Urban Fantasy, a mystery, and further chick lit stories.  Her books all feature real characters, drama, humour and always with a happy ending.

INTERVIEW

You’re a stay-at-home mom of three boys, how do you do it?  I’m still trying to work it out actually.  Of course my role as a mother has to come first while my kids are still so young (10, 8, 6) but they are all in school this year so I’m trying to work out some sort of routine.

How do you come up with the ideas for your books?  I think sometimes I’ll get a picture in my head, or a feeling, like a specific atmosphere and I will want to write something around that.  Other times I’ll get an idea through something that happens, for example I’m outlining a novel now that came from an idea after I got tailgated one night.

Describe what a typical day is like for you:  I’m really not particularly good at self motivation or routine so I haven’t quite gotten the typical day thing down just yet.  After I’ve sent the kids to school, I will sit at the computer and try and get a couple of hours of work done, which may not necessarily involve just writing.  It could often be to do with promotion, networking or learning (that’s actually probably code for ‘facebooking and websurfing LOL).  I always have housework to do so a large majority of the day is taken up with that as well, until the kids come home then it’s time for homework and getting dinner ready.

Coffee or tea?  Coffee.  We have two machines at home.  I even named my dog “Latte”  I do like tea too and try to drink a lot of rooibos (red bush)  tea as it’s good for you, apparently 🙂  – just not as much as coffee.

How did you celebrate the publication of your first book?  I think I was so overwhelmed by the whole experience I kind of forgot.  I think we got takeaway (takeout) and I had a glass of wine, but that was it.

If you could be on any reality TV show what would it be?  I do enjoy cooking so probably something like Masterchef, except I think I would have trouble with making up a recipe on a whim. I usually need longer than a couple of seconds.

Who is your favorite author?  Marian Keyes.  I love how she manages to inject darkness and serious subjects into a humourous book.  Or is it that she injects humour into a serious book?

Where is your ideal writing location?  I do wish I had my own room for writing.  But we do have a ‘grown up’ living room where my husband and I hang out so I have my desk there and he either watches TV or plays console games.

Facebook or Twitter?  Facebook.  I do have twitter but I don’t really know how to use it properly.

What’s the one thing that a writer must have?  Music.  Or sometimes peace and quiet.  And coffee.

If you weren’t a writer you’d be a…:  Stay at home mum, which I already am.  But if I wasn’t writing I’m sure my house would be a lot tidier.

Can you tell us about any upcoming projects?   I’m writing the second book in the Flirting with Magick series which is called Flirting with Secrets.   It’s about a young woman coping with grief and moves into her own apartment, which she discovers is haunted.   The heroine is a new character but a couple of minor characters from the first book are featured.  It can be read as a standalone book.

**Contact Leigh:  Blog   Facebook   Goodreads   Twitter

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When a new-age remedy fixes Abby Williams’ career rut, the twenty-five year old figures a spell could heal her broken heart too…

Suddenly, she’s having hot sex with an even hotter musician, which might work as long as she doesn’t get in the way of his rock stardom. Her work colleague is flirty and fun, but could he be keeping something from her? And now, the guy who broke her heart wants to rekindle their relationship. Can she trust him enough to give it another shot?

So far, it seems Abby’s spell hasn’t worked. Or then again, perhaps it has?

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Jackie Bouchard

May 14, 2013 16 Comments

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About author, Jackie Bouchard:  Jackie Bouchard used to write reports, newsletters, and presentations as part of her work as a Market Intelligence Analyst. While she loved the writing part, it was the trapped-in-the-corporate-hamster-wheel part she could do without. So she began working on a novel in her spare time. Eventually she scampered free of the hamster wheel, and now focuses on writing full time.

Her work has been published in San Diego CityBeat magazine and the San Diego Writers, Ink’s anthology, A Year in Ink, Vol. 3. Her first novel, What the Dog Ate, is a dog-friendly romantic comedy.

Jackie’s mission in writing is to bring her readers smiles, laughter, and the ability to forget about their troubles for a while, whether via her novels or her blog Pooch Smooches. She started the blog when her fifteen-month-old puppy, Abby, was diagnosed with bone cancer and had to have her leg amputated. Not an easy subject to keep light and humorous, but Abby lived on three legs with such gusto and grace for the remaining fifteen months of her life that she taught Jackie much about facing adversity and living in the moment.

Now Jackie mainly blogs about Rita, her rescue pup from Mexico. With Jackie being American, her husband a Canadian, and Rita from Mexico, they show that these NAFTA arrangements really can work out. Jackie and her husband have lived on both coasts of the U.S., Canada and Bermuda. They now live in San Diego.

INTERVIEW

Describe your writing style in five sentences:  I get a little idea (e.g. a dog eating some panties that don’t belong to his married momma) and dive in. I’m not a plotter – I like to come up with some characters and a situation and see what happens. If I know too much about where the story is going, it’s not fun for me. I like to discover where the story leads, just as the reader will. My method leads to lots of revising, but I’m one of those odd writers that enjoys revising.

When did you love for dogs begin?  Oh, gosh, it started back before I can even remember. My dad brought a beagle puppy home when I was only about two or three so, other than when I was away at college and when I lived in Bermuda, I’ve always had a dog.

Walk us through your writing/editing/publishing process:  I’m not a “write every day” gal. I sometimes take big breaks away from my writing—partly because once I start, I have a hard time stopping. Not much else gets done when I’m writing/editing because I get so sucked in to it. The bummer is that since I don’t plot, I often go off on tangents with my stories and a lot of stuff ends up on the virtual “cutting-room floor.” But I figure, it’s all good. Even the stuff that doesn’t make it in helps me work out who my characters are, back-stories, etc.

As I said before, I really like editing. I edit a lot as I go along, reading over the previous day’s work before I start writing each day. I’m actually trying to break myself of that habit, and instead just sit down and start writing new stuff first, because otherwise I can get so caught up in the search for the “perfect” words, that I often end up with nothing new written at the end of the day! Okay, I said I “like” editing – but I really love it. I get a dorky little thrill out of finding the perfect verb or cutting away any words that aren’t absolutely necessary. It’s a wonder I ever finish anything!

As for the publishing process, I have an agent, and we did try to find a traditional publisher for What the Dog Ate, but it was back in early 2009, after the market crashed. Not great timing. I tried to move on and started working on two other books, but my “first baby” was always in the back of my mind. In early 2012, I was having dinner with my agent and she suggested that I self-publish the book, so I did.

Who or what inspires you?  That’s a tough question for me, actually. There’s no one single thing or person that inspires me, but lots of people inspire me every day: my hubby, because he works so hard; my self-pubbed writer friends (especially lots of the Chick Lit Goddesses) because I see them achieving lots of great things; my dogs because they understand how to live in the present and not fret about tomorrow. And me, too! I inspire me – I want to be the best I can.

How do you come up with the titles of your books?  I don’t really have one set way. What the Dog Ate came out of a brain-storming session way back when it was just a short story I wrote for a beginning creative writing class. My agent wanted me to change it because she worried people would think it was a mystery, but we tried and couldn’t come up with anything else. What the dog ate is really what the book’s about – the whole way through.

For another book I’m working on, I thought of the title and the first line before anything else. I started writing based on those two wee tidbits. The title is a riff on a popular movie title, but I’m not ready to share it yet. **attempts to wink coyly; flubs it** [never been good at being coy.]

For my next release, I’ve been using the working title Just Only Jane, but I’m still trying other titles on for size. (In fact, I just attempted a brain-storming session today… but nothing grabbed me). Just Only Jane is a riff on one of my favorite books from when I was a kid, Just Only John. Since Jane is such a loner, I thought it fit, but… I’m still searching for something that might be more perfect.

What are you reading right now?  I’m reading The Love Dog by Elsa Watson, (if you like Chick Lit and dogs, check out Elsa’s books), and I’m also reading Save the Cat! (Funny – just realized I’m reading a cat and a dog book at the same time. I do love cats, even though I’m a certified dog person, but I’m allergic to them!) Anyway, Save the Cat! is technically for screenwriters, but it’s helpful for novelists too.

How did you celebrate when your first book was published?  Showered. Put some makeup on. I think I even washed my hair! No seriously – this is pretty boring, but What the Dog Ate was published just before my birthday, so the “hooray, I’m published” celebrations got rolled into the usual birthday celebrations: a lunch date with cocktails and cake with my sisters, lunch with my girlfriends, a nice dinner with the hubs.

Hard/paperbacks or eBooks?  I love a “real” book, but I read tons more books on my iPad now. For one thing, my hubs likes to sleep in on the weekends, so when I wake up early, I can hang out in bed with my iPad and read without turning the light on and bugging him. I used to love to own books. I had tons of them and would buy them all the time. But we live in Southern California where there’s fire danger pretty much every year. One year we had to prepare to evacuate (although luckily we never did actually evacuate!) and I realized how little of my “stuff” I really cared about. After that I stopped buying a lot of hard-copy books. Now, if we ever have to evacuate, the iPad will be one of the first things in the car!

You knew you were a writer when…?  I used to write very bad poetry as a kid, and I was very into all the arts. But as I grew up, I realized I was also a very practical person. I wanted to have a good job that would pay the bills. Since I liked numbers (yes, I like words and numbers, both!) I ended up majoring in Accounting. I liked my career(s) for a while, but eventually ended up feeling like a creative person trapped in a practical person’s body. I didn’t seriously start to write until about seven years ago, and even then I was just looking for something to do at night to keep busy because my hub’s work is very demanding and he works late most nights. Because I wasn’t clutching a pen from a young age, and because I don’t write every day, and because I’m not traditionally published, I often had a hard time thinking of myself as a “true” writer…until I came across this quote from Pulitzer Prize winner Junot Diaz a few years ago and realized, hey I am a writer!

“…in my view a writer is a writer not because she writes well and easily, because she has amazing talent, because everything she does is golden. In my view a writer is a writer because even when there is no hope, even when nothing you do shows any sign of promise, you keep writing anyway.” ~ Junot Diaz

Where is your favorite place to write?  I need quiet to write, so I do most of my work at home at my desk. I have a lovely view out my window and it’s very calm and peaceful. (Except for when my neighbor is standing on his roof naked – but luckily that only happened once!)

What’s the best advice you’ve been given?  This is the moral from Just Only John, the book I mentioned above, which I still own – and it works for writing as well as life in general: “Be yourself, because somebody has to and you’re the closest.”

Can you tell us about any of your upcoming projects?  I mentioned Just Only Jane above. The manuscript is “finished” (are they ever really finished??) and my agent is reading it at the moment. **reaches for bottle of whiskey; chews at fingernails**

I’ve already sent it out to my betas, and my sis is copy-editing it for me right now (she’s awesome!). However, I still haven’t managed to write a decent blurb for it, so bear with me while I try to say what it’s about it under 2000 words!

It’s the story of Jane, a 38-year-old loner, who’s just lost both her husband and her dog to cancer. She’s sadder about the dog though… but no one knows. She’d been about to tell her husband that she wanted a divorce, but then he got sick. Now, she’s free to move from Philly, where he dragged her six years ago, back to her home town of San Diego, where she dreams of picking up her old routine with her two life-long best friends. But, with no job to return to, she’s roped in to helping at her uncle’s B&B in small town Prescott, Arizona for a few months. On her way there, she finds a stray dog at a rest area, but she’s determined not to let this mutt creep into her heart. Can Jane keep her sanity while trying to get back to San Diego? Or will she lose it with the “annoying ass-hats” (a.k.a. guests) at the B&B? Maybe a little of both…

**Contact Jackie:  Website   Facebook   Twitter   Email: jackie@jackiebouchard.com

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**Buy Jackie’s book, “What the Dog Ate”, on Amazon!

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S.Moose

May 13, 2013 4 Comments

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About the author, S. Moose:  I grew up in Webster, NY and love it here. I have my BA from St. John Fisher College and am working at MAXIMUS Federal Services. I love reading and writing. I’ve never “followed” the traditional English writing structure and love to be creative. I was inspired to write after reading Forever Black by Sandi Lynn and it has been an amazing journey. I truly love my life and where I am at.

I got married to my best friend June 9, 2012 which is always the date I have selected to release my first novel Reaching Out For You. I selected this day because last year when I married Kevin it was the happiest day of my life. This will be my first book and I am so excited to share with my world Adam and Sophia. Their journey to find love, to me, is a true love story.

I love being around my family and friends. We do everything from family parties, to BBQ’s, going out or just relaxing at home.

I feel like I am achieving my goals and dreams but this is just the beginning.

INTERVIEW

What is the writing/editing/publishing process like for you?  I am doing everything on my own because I like to set my own schedule and deadlines. I’ll brainstorm for a day or two and then start writing. I love to listen to music while I write because it inspires me and I get some pretty great ideas while doing so. Editing is my nightmare! With Reaching Out For You there were times when I wanted to press delete and disappear but with the love and support of my family and friends I was able to overcome my fears.

A writer must have…:  A creative mind. You must be able to paint a story for your readers and connect with them with your words.

Where is your favorite writing location?  In my room-it’s my safe haven.

What is your favorite word?  Love

Who or what inspires you?  Self-published authors. I am in several groups on Facebook and the authors I have connected with are amazing. I love talking to them and getting their opinions.

What are you reading right now?  Resisting Her by Kendall Ryan

How do you come up with the titles of your books?  I like to play around with words and what would attract a potential reader.

While working, what is your choice of snack?  Cookies and chips haha so terrible for you but it’s my weakness!

Who is your favorite author, and what would you like to tell him/her?  Sandi Lynn-thank you so much for your encouraging words and wisdom. You have helped me so much and I am so thankful to have you as my friend. I hope to meet you one day and hug you because you truly have made an impact with my decision to pursue my writing career.

How has the social media helped your career thus far?  I love it. Facebook, Twitter and Goodreads have been very helpful and without social media people wouldn’t know about me or my book.

Five years from now you hope to…:  Be on the New York Times Bestseller list with several books published. I hope to have a publishing company find me and offer me a deal of a lifetime. Personally, I hope to be a mom in five years and feel complete.

Can you tell us about any future projects you have in mind?  I am currently working on my second book, Teach Me Love. It’s about finding love and trusting yourself. The power of love can create miracles and hopefully it’ll open up his eyes. Additionally, I am working on the second book to the Never Letting Go series which will be about Connor and Erin-best friends of Adam and Sophia. No title yet but be on the lookout for both novels.

BOOK FEATURE

ReachingOutForYouCoverBlurb of “Reaching Out For You”

Adam and Sophia were best friends but when tragedy strikes it’s more than Adam can handle and he leaves Sophia alone in the dark.

Four years later, Adam and Sophia are reunited and the sparks between them return but is it too late?

Sophia is happy again and has let go of the darkness. She has great friends and a sweet boyfriend name Kyle. Now that Adam is back how will she be able to balance her boyfriend and her best friend?

The darkness always finds you again but will Adam be able to save her or leave her again?

Chapter 1

Life is tricky. It does things that make you wonder. It always throws curve balls but it takes strength and love to be able to get through the disasters. The simple words and actions of others can make a difference between life and death. Sometimes it’s hard to feel love, but it’s always there. The love of a parent, a sibling or a friend is there but the darkness has a way of hiding those feelings that people yearn for. Darkness. What a funny word that carries such evilness and fear. The darkness can be defeated but it takes a strong person that’s willing to see past it and reach for the light. The light can be anyone or anything.

My light left me in the dark, but life always has a way of making things right again. I see my light every week but I can’t bring myself to say anything. I feel nothing but shame and embarrassment. I messed up with my light and I wish he’d see how much I miss him. But I think it might be too late. My light looks happy and satisfied. I don’t wanna mess up his life like I did before.

I look down at my journal and read what I just wrote. Writing was an escape from reality for me. I could write about anything and everything and know that my words were for my eyes only. It was a release and a way to put things in perspective- my own private counseling session. I was able to reevaluate my thoughts and actions.

My therapist, Dr. Taylor, keeps encouraging me to write since it allows to me see myself in my words. My thoughts run wild as I think about Adam. He’s the only one who understands me. I fell in love with him when we were ten years old. I used to imagine our wedding and being with him forever. He’s still my first love. I think about him every day. The bond we had was irreplaceable. I didn’t think that leaving him would leave an ache in my heart that has never gone away.

I place my head on my pillow and my mind goes back to August when I saw him again. He came into my creative writing class and I couldn’t believe he was there. I thought he was in Boston for school and never thought I’d see him sitting there in my class at my school. His blonde hair was done perfectly and those piercing blue eyes looked through me as if he saw my soul. The way his polo hugged his beautiful body made me quiver. I imaged him picking me up in those strong arms and putting those lips all over me.

I shake my head and push those thoughts away. It’s too late and the damage had been done. I close my journal and put it back under my pillow. I think a little more about life as I get up from my bed to get ready for class.

I’m in my senior year of college and am up for a full time position with Optimax-a newfound technological company that focuses on the success of students. The company has released new products that help students who have trouble learning and paying attention. The new advances in the company strived to push students in the middle and high school levels to graduate and go to college.

I’ve always wanted to help people especially kids and teens. The position at the company primarily focuses on the marketing and sales end but just to be a part of something so innovative is a great feeling. Life is going well and I’m happy but there’s still something missing.

I finish getting ready for class and give myself a quick check in the mirror. I grab my purse and books and head out. My dorm was newer and nicely renovated. I have the dorm room to myself and it feels good to come back after a day full of classes to relax and not have to worry about anyone else. College was a whole new world for me.

The university was older and has a historical essence. It was built in the 1899’s but there’s so much life and energy that surrounds the school. It provides a calm and serene feeling that helps students relax. The trees and intact nature gives it a touch of tranquility many people try to find after a long day of classes. Some of the buildings are newer, but many of the buildings didn’t have elevators, only stairs. There are four different main buildings and six buildings for the dorms with 15 rooms on each floor. Each dorm building has three floors and are all secured. Each student has their own key card with access to just their building. I feel safe in my dorm knowing that not anyone could come right in. There are benches and trees all over and during the warmer months several students would plant flowers in the courtyard to enhance the liveliness of the school. I’m only an hour away from home so leaving wasn’t ever an issue. I wanted to be close yet far enough so that I was able to grow and live my own life without the protective eyes of my dad and older sister Sarah.

It’s December and luckily no snow in North Carolina. It’s freezing outside but the walk to my class isn’t too bad of a walk. I look around and notice the bare trees all around. There’s a peaceful feel in the air today. I look up to the sky and remember my mom’s voice-god I miss her so much.

As I enter the building I see Erin chatting away with a group of friends. I still remembered the day I met her.

It was the first day of freshmen orientation and I saw this petite blond hair, green-eyed girl coming my way. I thought she’d mistaken me for someone else so I turned around and started walking away.

“Hey!”

I turned around and saw her smile. “Um hi?” The question in my tone made me sound like a snob but I didn’t know how else to answer her.

“I’m Erin. It’s nice to meet you! I love your outfit! Oh my god! We need to go shopping together.”

We’ve been friends ever since.

“Why hello sunshine.” She gives me a quick hug and smiles. “Where you going now?”

I point over to the classroom on the right hand side. “History. World War II you know that fun stuff.”

“I don’t even know why you’re taking that class. You’re like done with everything so why bother.”

“One it’s a very interesting class and two I like to learn new things.”

“Learn anything from Kyle yet?” The evil smirk on her face makes me laugh.

Kyle Harrington, captain of the basketball team, all around amazing, sweet, sexy, gorgeous and smart guy is my boyfriend. We met at the Business Leaders of America group last semester. We were assigned to work together on a project and I hated the idea of being paired with him. I thought he was a cocky jock at first and I was prepared to do the whole project without him. But he surprised me and put in his part of the project. We spent endless nights together in the café going through every slide to ensure everything was perfect. Kyle was like me, a perfectionist. He had so many good ideas and I was crushing on him bad only after spending so much time with him but I wasn’t experienced and never had a boyfriend so being around Kyle was new. I had a feeling he felt the same way but I was too scared to ask. He’d ask me to go to his basketball games and we spent a lot of time together. Finally on our fourth date, he asked me to be his girlfriend and I said yes. We’ve been together for a few months and things were going great but he started to change. Our relationship turned from romantic and sweet to arguing every day. I didn’t know what to do-I wanted to break up with him. I’m holding a secret and I’ve tried to leave him but he won’t let me go. I can’t seem to get away and each time I do, he gets mad and treats me horribly. I shake away those thoughts and try to focus on Erin.

I look back and see her waiting patiently for my answer. “No nothing new,” I laugh.

“How are you a 21 year old virgin? God Soph are you planning on becoming a nun or something?”

“Funny.” I shrug my shoulders. “You’re lucky you’re my best friend. But I gotta get to class, talk to you later.” We give each other another hug and I get to class. I make my way to the back of the classroom and get ready for class to start.

Students are slowly making their way into class. The room is fairly large with windows all over. It’s nice to look out and watch the world pass you by during a boring lecture. Today we’re discussing imprisonment. So fun.

I pull out my notebook from my purse when I see Adam come into the room. My breathing stops and I feel my heart pounding. Our eyes meet and there’s something in his eyes that I can’t figure out. He has a look-a look he used to always give me. He puts his hand up to say “hi” and smiles. I freeze. I can’t say or do anything. He didn’t have this class so why is he here? My mind goes back to the night I almost lost Adam:

I was driving to the restaurant to meet my dad and Sarah for dinner. I was at the stoplight when I saw someone sitting by a tree in the corner of the road. Usually I ignored the person and carried on but a voice told me to go see if they were okay. I pulled my car up to the curb and put it in park. When I got out and started walking over to the mysterious person, I realized it was Adam and started running. I made sure he was breathing and started to shake him. He slowly opened his eyes and said my name, “Sophia,” and passed out again. I smelled alcohol on his breath and knew that if we brought him to the hospital and got the cops involved it would mean trouble for him and I didn’t want that to happen. I ran back to my car and brought it over so I could put Adam in the backseat. I immediately called my dad and told him what was going on; he was a doctor at a nearby hospital and he would know what to do. He got nervous and wanted me to call Adam’s parents but I knew his dad would have freaked out so I pleaded with mine to have him spend the night. It took some time but my dad finally gave me instructions on what to do. My nerves were running wild and I was scared. I didn’t want anything bad to happen to Adam. The adrenaline and fear helped me get him in the car but I was exhausted after getting him in. When I got Adam to my house my dad was there with Sarah waiting for me. We managed to get him inside and settled on the couch. After my dad was done making sure he was ok, he left the room with Sarah so I could be with him. I sat across from him and watched him sleep. I sent a text to Connor letting him know what was going on but never heard back. I wanted to crawl next to Adam and tell him to forgive me and to come back to me but that never happened. I was too scared to see how he’d react. I was leaving the next day to go to school and from what I heard he was heading to Boston. I simply gave me a kiss on the forehead and said goodbye. I never found out what happened the next morning and never asked how he reacted. I left the next morning at six without saying bye to Adam. I hated myself for doing that but I couldn’t face him. Sarah tried to tell me but I waved her off and said I couldn’t handle it because I couldn’t.

The pain in my heart pokes its ugly head out. I would have given anything just to have him back in my life. I couldn’t take my eyes off of him and my body aches for his touch. As soon as Dr. Murphy comes into class he takes Adam into the hall. I wonder what’s going on. I try and peek out but they’re so quiet and everyone in class is loud so I can’t hear anything.  I keep thinking about the times we’ve run into each other and the smiles he gives me. Adam has two smiles-a friendly smile and one that means something else. The smile I get is the one that means something else, but I wasn’t sure the meaning. I’ve never taken the chance to talk to him because I’m scared with how he’ll react. Would he dismiss me? Would he care? I don’t think he’d be rude since he smiles whenever I’m around but something just feels off. Finally Dr. Murphy comes back into class, without Adam, and starts his lecture.

I try and listen to what he’s talking about but I keep thinking about Adam. The way he looks today stays on my mind. I love looking into his blue eyes. He was my best friend and I shared everything with him. Every memory I had he was in it. We were inseparable all throughout elementary, middle and high school until senior year when I ended our friendship. If only I could take back that night.

“Miss Burns?”

I quickly look up when Dr. Murphy calls my name. “I’m sorry Dr. Murphy could you repeat the question?”

Annoyance in his tone he asks, “What are your thoughts about imprisonment?”

I look around the room and see my classmate’s eyes on me. This seems like an easy answer since I experience imprisonment almost every day. I’m confident with my answer. “It’s an evil force that was used throughout the war and I think it was used to create fear and control.”

Dr. Murphy’s face starts to glow. “Good Miss Burns.”

He continues on with class and starts talking about how we shouldn’t let history repeat itself and making small changes can help ensure that. I thought about what he was saying and realized how I didn’t want history to repeat. I didn’t want the darkness to take over my life anymore.

When he dismisses class, I hurry out the room.  I send a text to Erin so that we can meet for coffee. My body suddenly freezes and I feel someone watching me. I slowly turn around and see Adam behind me. Why did he have to transfer here to my school? Out of the thousands of schools there are in the United States, why this one? I was doing fine without him near me! Well that’s a lie. I dream about him every night and wish he would come back. But how can I be around him when I’m dating Kyle? I have to be loyal and faithful. It’s hard enough to see him at the basketball practices and games. I try to avoid him at all costs but nothing works. He’s always around!

Erin tried being friends with him since they had some classes together and talked about how good he looked or how nice he is. After a few weeks of listening to her talk about Adam, I became jealous and turned into a bitch. I told her that it was he or I. She called me a dumb and immature for that but being around Adam brought back too many memories that I buried all those years ago.

My eyes are ready to pop out of my head. I didn’t know what to say to him or what to do. He gets in front of my face and I couldn’t talk. Our eyes connect and it’s a feeling no one could ever describe. The way he makes me feel is unbelievable.

“Hey Soph.” He smiles at me. “It was good seeing you in class. Sorry I couldn’t talk but maybe next time.” He places his hand on my shoulder and gives me a gentle squeeze and walks towards the gym. My body is on fire. With just one touch, my mind is spinning in circles and I feel everything in my body tighten.

I stand there with my mouth dry and my heart beating out of my chest. I couldn’t even say hi to him. This is ridiculous. I am twenty-one years old and can handle talking to an old friend. An old friend that I still love and fantasize about. Oh yeah, saying Hi should have been easy!

I make it to the café and order a soy caramel latte with an extra shot of espresso. I take a sip and wait for Erin at a table in the corner of the room. I play that scene over in my head and try to figure out what hell just happened. I’m beside myself and embarrass because I stood there like an idiot. Maybe he didn’t hate me and was trying to get back in my life?

“Girl stop thinking.”

My head jerks up and my bubbly best friend is dressed to impress with her skinny jeans, black knee high boots and a sweater. “Hi to you too sunshine.”

She takes my latte and sits down. “Yeah yeah. Alright what’s going on?”

I give her my death stare as she drinks my latte. “Nothing! I wanted to see you and catch up.” I want to tell her more about Adam but it feels weird to talk about him.

“Bullshit.” She rolls her eyes at me. “I know something’s up with you so tell me.”

I sigh. I knew she wouldn’t let this go and get me to talk. “Alright so remember Adam right?”

“Yeah hot Adam Simpson.” My body tenses again when she says his name.

“I can’t stop thinking about him Erin. I dream about him at night and freeze every time he’s near me. I can’t focus at all and ugh!” I sigh as think about all of this. Why was this so hard? “And get this? He was walking behind me earlier and said “hey Soph.” I almost died!”

Erin slaps my arm and nearly falls out of her chair. “What the hell did you say back to him?”

I look away from her, “nothing,” I mumble.

“Huh? Talk louder,” she enunciates her words.

“Nothing!” I shriek and then put my hands over my face to hide my humiliation.

Erin bursts out laughing. “You said nothing? Oh my god Soph.”

“Yes please laugh at me because that makes me feel so much better!”

She takes my hand and looks at me. “Honey, I love you so much but you’re a riot. Why do I feel like something else is going on with you?” She looks at me with question in her eyes. I looked away from her. “Oh no Sophia! Tell me what’s going on!”

I roll my eyes. “I don’t know if I wanna be with Kyle anymore. Things suck right now. All we do is fight and he’s an asshole.” I sighed and leaned back in my chair. “I don’t know Erin. I mean we fight a lot and he gets mad when I don’t wanna go out. I like to stay away from the party scene and he hasn’t grown up, he is still a partier. He’s different behind closed doors when we’re alone.”

“Aww Soph I’m sorry. Have you tried talking to him?”

“No.” I look down at my hands. “He doesn’t like to talk about anything.”

Erin gets up and walks over to me. She sits down again and looks me in the eyes. “I want you to be happy Soph because you deserve nothing but the best. If you are feeling shitty with Kyle then leave him. If you want Adam make sure you’re done with Kyle. You gotta do you babe.”

I look at my best friend and think about what to do next.

**Comments from the author, S. Moose:  Thank you for your time! This was fun and I am glad to have met you and the other Goddesses! Also, I love meeting my fans so feel free to email me and send me a message on Facebook or Twitter!

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Filed Under: Reaching Out For You, S.Moose Tagged With: Book feature, Books, Chick-Lit, Guest Interview, Reaching Out For You, S.Moose, Writing

Zanna Mackenzie

May 10, 2013 9 Comments

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About author, Zanna Mackenzie:  Zanna Mackenzie lives in the East Midlands in the UK with her husband, 4 dogs, a vegetable patch that’s home to far too many weeds and an ever expanding library of books waiting to be read.

Being a freelance writer and editor of business publications is her ‘day job’ but, at every opportunity, she can be found scribbling down notes on scenes for whatever novel she’s working on. She loves it when the characters in her novels take on minds of their own and start deviating from the original plot!

Formerly a travel agent and therapist (she has qualifications in clinical aromatherapy, crystal healing, naturopathic nutrition and herbalism) she loves walking the dogs and gardening – that’s when she’s not writing or reading!

INTERVIEW

How would you describe your writing style?  Mostly light hearted; comedy and romance in a modern style.

People would be surprised to know that you…:  Ooohhh… I don’t know! Erm, let me think. How about, that I’m a meteorology geek! I’ve always been fascinated by weather and weather forecasting. When I was about ten I had a proper Stevenson screen (a white box to house equipment and keep direct sun off it) and took detailed temperature, humidity, rainfall, barometric readings every day. These days I have an electronic mini weather station in the garden which automatically transmits temperature (current, plus max and min) humidity, air pressure etc to a small display device in the kitchen. It’s brill!

Writing makes you feel…:  Complete. I feel that it’s what I’m meant to do. If my day job keeps me away from writing for too long I get fidgety and desperate to get back to my current writing project.

What is your most prized possession?  Books. Lots of them! Oh, and a very tatty teddy bear that I was given when I was born by my parents. He’s very much worse for wear these days but then he is getting on a bit in bear years!!

Walk us through your writing process?  An idea out of nowhere, develop the plot outline, create characters with detailed bios, work more on the plot, filling in the details, ensuring that there is always something happening in the story, lots of plot points. Type up scene outlines in correct order, then start filling in the gaps. Ideas for scenes and dialogue pop into my head at all times of the day and night so I always have a notebook to hand, jot the details down, then type them up when I get chance. I would say most of my ‘creative’ writing goes on in my head all the time, rather than saying it is when I sit in front of a computer and do that side of things. If I’m on the computer then mostly I’m typing up stuff from my notebook rather than actually ‘writing’. After the first full draft of the book, the editing begins and goes on and on and on!

Hard/paperbacks or eBooks?  I would say paperbacks. I do have Kindle on my PC but I don’t have a proper portable Kindle, I’m still resisting that at the moment. I’m a bit of a traditionalist I guess and still prefer a ‘proper real’ book where possible rather than a virtual one.

Are any of your characters based upon people you know?  No. They just evolve in my head. I have an idea of the type of person I want for my book, what their strengths and weaknesses are, and this shapes them the most. Then I choose a zodiac/star sign which suits them (for this I always use a great book written specially for writers creating characters and wanting personality info for star signs) and this shapes them a bit more. Then I ‘interview’ the characters about their car, home, clothes, family, education etc and eventually end up with a full bio for each character – it’s great fun!

What are you reading right now?  Two books. An old book by Christina Jones called Stealing The Show, and Salmon Fishing In The Yemen by Paul Torday. I recently saw the film of this book and loved it so I thought I’d now read the book.

Who or what inspires you?  I don’t know! Ideas just hit me out of everywhere and nowhere!

How has the social media helped your career?  I confess I’m not a big social media person so I only got into all that side of things for my writing. Since I got my two publishing deals though I have found Facebook to be invaluable. I’m in several closed author groups and everyone helps each other out with promotions on blogs, advice, plot feedback, support and encouragement. It’s been great.

If you could say something to your favorite author what would it be?  I love your books!

Can you tell us about any of your upcoming projects?  I number my books as it is then easier for me to keep track, so my current works in progress (WIP) are books 4 and 5. Book 4 is written and is now at editing stage. It’s a contemporary romance set in Derbyshire’s Peak District and centres on the inhabitants of a village which is a mecca for extreme sports enthusiasts. The main characters are Faith who owns and runs a coffee shop in the village, and Zane who co-owns an outdoor sports centre with business partner Matt. It’s about the complex and developing relationships for each of them. Book 5 has a scene outline of about 40,000 words in place and I now need to go back through it and ‘fill in the gaps’ adding in the detail. It is set in Scotland and London and is about the negative side of fame and how it impacts on relationships.

BOOK FEATURE

HowDoYouSpellLoveCoverPic**Blurb of “How Do You Spell Love”:

Make A Wish…

Kat can’t help wishing there was more to life than this. What happened to her dream job? What happened with Nathan?

Summer is wondering where her life is going too… battling the developers of a controversial housing estate and working out why boyfriend Rob is increasingly distant.

When the developers win the battle and move into town everyone’s life is turned upside down.

Kat meets building site project manager Alex. She enjoys his company far too much, even though he’s on the town’s most hated list.

Summer meets Tom who has plenty of relationship troubles of his own, so things could get really complicated.

Soon everyone is keeping secrets, lives change and hearts are broken. Is everything falling apart, or does life just work in mysterious ways…

CHAPTER 1

Kat pushed the last of the cottage cheese and shrimp sandwiches into the cool box and slammed the van door shut. As if her life wasn’t enough of a disaster zone as it was – no money, lousy job, losing Nathan, having to move back home to live with her parents – now this had to go and happen.

Cringing as a van full of builders stopped at the nearby traffic lights, Kat braced herself for the inevitable. After the standard-issue wolf whistles had drifted across from their van, next came the leered, “Wouldn’t argue with that, love!” as one of them nodded towards her sparkling clean van, parked neatly at the curb. The words “A Bit of Crumpet on the Road” emblazoned down the side in deep purple, glittery lettering. Not for the first time Kat cursed her boss Janice for calling her bakery-cum-deli that name.

Kat sighed, well it certainly drew comments from the public and from their customers, not always welcome ones, but as Janice was always keen to point out, any kind of publicity and attention was, in her eyes, good publicity and attention.

Pulling her navy and white striped apron more tightly around her T-shirt and shorts, Kat ignored the builders and climbed into her van to begin that morning’s deliveries. As she indicated to pull out into the busy street in Luisborough, she mulled over the bad news – that she was to add the controversial Netherton Meadows housing development to her daily sandwich round.

Netherton Meadows. Yippee. If Summer found out, she’d surely be ostracised for fraternising with the environmental enemy. This was a development that pretty much everyone in Luisborough had fought against for getting on towards a year. It had been the focus of STW campaigns. It went against everything that Kat believed in environmental-wise. Everyone hated the Netherton Meadows developers. Except, it seemed, Janice, who was perfectly happy to, in her words, ‘supply yummy builders with yummy sandwiches.’

Lost in thought, Kat just managed to spot the approaching traffic lights had turned to red and hastily slammed a foot on the brake. The van lurched to a halt and several boxes of crisps and one of the cool boxes in the back tipped over. It was shaping up to be one of those days.

Two hours later Kat had visited all her usual drops, was extremely hot and bothered, and could put off going to Netherton Meadows no longer.

Driving through the assorted vans, machinery and portacabins Kat parked next to a building marked as being the Site Office and hit the button on the dashboard. Tinkling chimes filled the air as Kat climbed from the driver’s seat and made to open the back doors of the vehicle. It was embarrassing enough that the van had the company name in large lettering along its side but, just to make sure that it received maximum exposure – and achieved maximum embarrassment – Janice had had some irritating chimes fitted to the vehicle too. Kat was under strict instructions to sound the chimes when she called at all of the sites where people came out to the van; such as they were about to at Netherton Meadows.

A man came down the steps of the office with a grin on his face and walked towards her. “Hi, you must be Kat.” He wedged a clipboard under his left arm and offered a hand to shake. “I’m Alex. Project manager for the site.”

“Hi,” mumbled Kat, spotting a group of hard-hat-clad builders advancing towards her with hungry expressions on their faces.

“Right, lads,” Alex turned towards the men. “This is Kat and she’s very kindly agreed to venture onto this site to bring you all your lunch. Don’t give her any hassle, OK?”

The men laughed and then nodded. “Sure, Alex. You’re the boss.”

Fifteen minutes later it seemed that all of the team at the development had made their sandwich, crisp and drink selections and sloped off to devour them in the sunshine. Only one of the builders, a portly man who must have been twenty years Kat’s senior, had pushed the boundaries a little, despite Alex’s earlier warning. As he’d selected a smoked salmon and cream cheese roll – a choice that had surprised Kat somewhat, having pegged him as a ham and cheese kind of guy – he’d asked Kat if she’d fancy joining him for a drink sometime. She’d politely declined his offer, saying that she had a boyfriend. No need to tell him that, technically, she and Nathan were no longer an item. No need to tell him why either.

**Contact Zanna!:  Zanna Mackenzie   Zanna Mackenzie – Blogspot   Facebook   Goodreads   Twitter

Filed Under: Isabella Tagged With: Book feature, Books, Chick-Lit, Guest Interview, How Do You Spell Love, Zanna Mackenzie

Carolyn Ridder Aspenson

May 8, 2013 Leave a Comment

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About author, Carolyn Ridder Aspenson:  Rarely can you find Carolyn without a book, or her Nook with her. Reading for her has always been an escape, a way of discovering a world different than her own. Throughout her education, her teachers encouraged her to nourish her muse and she did, often to the neglect of her mathematical genius, which clearly left and found another human before long division in fourth grade. Her math skills still suffer today. She traveled the journalism route in college but never felt the connection and finally opted out of writing as a career in general. Carolyn never gave up writing for fun. She wrote to express herself, to understand her feelings and to let the muse have her say. The invention of the Internet allowed Carolyn and her muse to write things others could read and with that, she eventually began freelance writing through various avenues. She currently writes for several local papers and magazines in the Atlanta area and finally took the dive into self-publishing with her debut novel, Unfinished Business An Angela Panther Novel. Carolyn wrote her first novel to honor her mother – she felt the need to let her mother’s voice live on and wrote the book as a way to handle her grief. Her first novel has only been out for a week and she hopes someone other than friends will buy it. Carolyn is already working on the second book of the series. Carolyn is a mother of three with a husband she refers to as her ‘hottie hubby’, two dogs and a cat who thinks she’s the queen of the house.  Carolyn, however, disagrees.

INTERVIEW

Describe your writing style in five words:  Can I phone a friend?

When did you know you were a writer?  That’s a tough one. I thought I was a writer when I started writing for a website about ABC soap operas, (here’s a plug) http://www.allmywriters.com. Then I thought I was a writer when I started to get paid for doing marketing pieces for a promotion company. Once I started freelancing for the papers here in Atlanta and saw my first front-page article, I decided I was a real writer but when I published my book, I thought I was a writer too. Looking back, I think being a writer isn’t determined by someone purchasing your work or by the fact that you’re paid to write something specific. I think being a writer is something you finally feel inside, it comes with the accomplishment of something important in your own world…in your own opinion of yourself. For me, I’m not entirely sure that’s happened. I am overly critical of myself and my own accomplishments and in that drive to improve, I think I feel I’m never good enough or just out of reach of my goal, because my goal keeps changing. A psychiatrist would have a field day with me.

Who is your favorite author?  I have a few. My favorite author is Robert Parker, who passed a few years ago. He is the author of the Spenser series. Some might remember the TV show Spenser For Hire (I’m dating myself here, I know!) Close seconds are Harlan Coben and Robert Crais.

Walk us through your writing/editing/publishing process:  Oh boy. My writing process is still ‘undecided’. Some days I don’t write at all and some days I spend the entire day writing. With my book, I was so critical and unsure of myself I wrote and rewrote for six months and then one day I stopped and didn’t start up again for almost a year. The restart lasted about three months and throughout the entire process I re-read and edited almost daily. I’m hoping to NOT do that as much with the second book. I did hire a professional editor for the clean up and she told me she should have given me a discount because there wasn’t much to clean. I suspect my second book will be messier. I published through a great program that distributes the book to other outlets and it was easier than I expected. I’m still searching for a publisher or agent who will think I’m worth a shot.

If you’re not reading or writing, then you’re probably…:  at my son’s lacrosse game or practice or sadly, cleaning. I’m OCD about cleaning. It’s a curse.

Where do you get your ideas?  The ideas in my first book come from my personal experience of losing my mother and what I would ‘like’ things to be like for me now. I also researched teenager issues because I didn’t want to use anything about my kids issues (they all have them!) and have them whine at me about it. I also have some great friends who have wonderful senses of humor to bounce ideas off of, who added a lot of fun to my story.

What is your favorite word?  Probably. I love that it’s almost committing but not quite. My second favorite word is ‘duck’ and that’s because when I text, my phone always autocorrects a very inappropriate swear word to it. I know use it instead of the real swear word and it instantly makes me feel better. Probably I should use it more in my writing, too.

How did you come up with the title of your book, “Unfinished Business”?  I used an Italian phrase in my book and it means “Unfinished Business” and it clicked for me. Apparently it’s clicked for other writers also because it’s the name of several books, so I added the “An Angela Panther Novel” to it just in case.

Hard/paperbacks or eBooks?  I have a paperback on Amazon however I’m rethinking how I got it there because I’m not comfortable with the process costs.

Where do you want to be five years from now?  On the top of the NY Best Seller list. If that means I have to stand on a paper with the printed list on it, then that’s what I’ll do, but I’d prefer my name actually BE on the list. At the top.

What is the best advice you’ve been given?  “Finish the book.” During my hiatus, (which was actually more of a “duck, it. I give up” time, really) I had a dream that my mother and I were sitting in her old kitchen, drinking coffee. She looked at me and said, “You need to finish the book before you move out of your house.” I took that two ways – finish the book and repair the crap that needs repair in your house because you’re going to move soon. I’m still working on repairing the crap, but so far we have no plans to move. She might know something different, however.

Can you tell us about any of your upcoming projects?  I’m already working on book two of the series and hope to have it done in a timely matter, by the end of the year.  In the first book, Angela’s life changes in a huge way. In book two, it changes again and she works to change it back. She’s also working to help her best friend find proof that her husband is cheating on her. To do that, she’s got to enlist the help of her mother, who by the way is dead.

BOOK FEATURE

Unfinished BusinessBook blurb “Unfinished Business; An Angela Panther Novel”

When Angela’s mother Fran dies and comes back as a ghost, Angela’s ordinary life turns into a carnival show, starring both Angela and her nosy, dead mother.

It seems Fran’s got some unfinished business on earth and she’s determined to get it done, no matter what.

When Fran returned, she reignited her daughter’s long suppressed psychic gift, one she neglected to mention to Angela, and now Angela sees ghosts everywhere. And they won’t leave her alone.

Fran can’t help but stick her transparent nose where it doesn’t belong, making Angela’s life even crazier.

Now Angela has to find a way to keep her old life in tact and help the dead with their unfinished business, all while trying to keep her dead mother out of trouble.

And it’s a lot for one woman to handle.

**Click on the links below to watch trailers of “Unfinished Business; An Angela Panther Novel”

Trailer one and Trailer two

CHAPTER ONE

The air in the room felt frigid and sent an icy chill deep into my bones. Searching for comfort, I lay on the rented hospice bed, closed my eyes, and snuggled under Ma’s floral print quilt. I breathed in her scent, a mixture of Dove soap, Calvin Klein Eternity perfume and stale cigarettes. The stench of death lingered in the air, trying hard to take over my senses, but I refused to let it in. Death may have taken my mother, but not her smell. Not yet.

“You little thief, I know what you did now.”

I opened my eyes and searched the room, but other than my Pit Bull, Grey Hound mix Gracie, and me, it was empty. Gracie sensed my ever-so-slight movement, looked up from her spot next to the bed, sniffed the air, and laid her head back down. I saw my breath, which wouldn’t have been a big deal except it was May, in Georgia. I closed my eyes again.

“I know you can hear me, Angela. Don’t you ignore me.”

I opened my eyes again. “Ma?”

Floating next to the bed, in the same blue nightgown she had on when she died, was my mother, or more likely, some grief-induced image of her.

“Ma,” I said, and then laughed out loud. “What am I saying? It’s not you. You’re dead.”

The grief-induced image spoke. “Of course I’m dead, Angela, but I told you if I could, I’d come back. And I can so, ta-da, here I am.”

The image floated up in the air, twirled around in a few circles and floated back down.

I closed my eyes and shook my head, trying to right my brain or maybe shake loose the crazy, but it was pointless because when I opened my eyes again, the talking image of my mother was still there.

“Oh good grief, stop it. It’s not your head messing with you, Angela. It’s me, your Ma. Now sit up and listen to me. This is important.”

As children we’re conditioned to respond to our parents when they speak to us. We forget it as teenagers, but somewhere between twenty and the birth of our first child, we start acknowledging them again, maybe even believing some of what they tell us. Apparently it was no different when you imagined their ghost speaking to you, too. Crazy maybe, but no different.

I rubbed my eyes. “This is a dream, so I might as well go with it,” I said.

I sat up, straightened my back, plastered a big ol’ smile on my face – because it was a dream and I could be happy the day my mom died, in a dream – and said, “Hi Ma, how are you?”

“You ate my damn Hershey bars,” she said.

“Hershey bars? I dream about my dead mother and she talks about Hersey bars. What is that?”

“Don’t you act like you don’t know what I’m talking about, Angela,” she said.

“But I don’t know what you’re talking about, Ma.” I shook my head again and thought for sure I was bonkers, talking to an imaginary Ma.

“Oh for the love of God, Angela, my Hershey bars. The ones I hid in the back of my closet.”

Oh. Those Hershey bars, from like, twenty years ago, at least. The ones I did eat.

“How do you know it was me that ate your Hershey bars? That was over twenty years ago.”

The apparition smirked. “I don’t know how I know, actually. I just do. I know about all of the stuff you did, and your brothers too. It’s all in here now,” she said with a smirk, and pointed to her slightly transparent head.

She floated up to the ceiling, spun in a circle, and slowly floated back down. “And look, I’m floating. Bet you wish you could do that, don’t you, Angela? You know, I’d sit but I tried that before and fell right through to the damn basement. And let me tell you, that was not fun. It was creepy, and it scared the crap outta me. And oh, Madone, the dust between your two floors! Good Lord, it was nasty. You need to clean that. No wonder Emily’s always got a snotty nose. She’s allergic.”

“Emily does not always have a snotty nose,” I said, even though she did.

The apparition started to say something, then looked at the bed. “Ah, Madone, that mattress. That was the most uncomfortable thing I ever slept on, but don’t get me started on that. That’s a conversation for another time.”

Another time?

“And,” she continued, “I hated that chair,” she said while pointing to the chair next to the bed. “You should have brought my chair up here instead. I was dying and you wanted me to sit in that chair? What with that uncomfortable bed and ugly chair, my back was killing me.” She smiled at her own joke, but I sat there stunned, and watched the apparition’s lips move, my own mouth gaping, as I tried to get my mind and my eyes to agree on what floated in front of me.

“Ah, Madone. Stop looking at me like that, Angela Frances Palanca. You act like you’ve never seen a ghost.”

“Ma, I haven’t ever seen a ghost, and my name is Angela Panther, not Palanca. You know that.” My mother always called me Angela Palanca, and it drove both my father and me batty. She said I was the closest thing to a true Italian she could create, and felt I deserved the honor of an Italian last name. She never liked Richter, my maiden name, because she said it was too damned German.

“And that recliner of yours was falling apart. I was afraid you’d hurt yourself in it. Besides, it was ugly, and I was sort of embarrassed to put it in the dining room.” I shook my head again. “And you’re not real, you’re in my head. I watched them take your body away, and I know for a fact you weren’t breathing, because I checked.”

Realizing that I was actually having a discussion with someone who could not possibly be real, I pinched myself to wake up from what was clearly some kind of whacked-out dream.

“Stop that, you know you bruise easily. You don’t want to look like a battered wife at my funeral, do you?”

Funeral? I had no intention of talking about my mother’s funeral with a figment of my imagination. I sat for a minute, speechless, which for me, was a huge challenge.

“They almost dropped you on the driveway, you know.” I giggled, and then realized what I was doing, and immediately felt guilty – for a second.

Ma scrunched her eyebrows and frowned. “I know. I saw that. You’d think they’d be more careful with my body, what with you standing there and all. There you were, my daughter, watching them take away my lifeless, battered body, and I almost went flying off that cart. I wanted to give them a what for, and believe me, I tried, but I felt strange, all dizzy and lightheaded. Sort of like that time I had those lemon drop drinks at your brother’s wedding. You know, the ones in those little glasses? Ah, that was a fun night. I haven’t danced like that in years. I could have done without the throwing up the next day, though, that’s for sure.”

Lifeless, battered body? What a dramatic apparition I’d imagined.

I sat up and rubbed my eyes and considered pinching myself again, but decided the figment was right, I didn’t want to be all bruised for the funeral.

There I sat, in the middle of the night, feeling wide awake, but clearly dreaming. I considered telling her to stay on topic, seeing as dreams don’t last very long, and maybe my subconscious needed my dream to process her death, but instead said, “This is just a dream,” because I was trying to convince myself this apparition wasn’t real.

She threw her hands up in the air. “Again with the dreaming. It’s not a dream, Angela. You’re awake, and I’m here, in the flesh.” She held her transparent hand up and looked at it. “Okay, so not exactly in the flesh, but you know what I mean.”

This wasn’t my mother, I knew this, because my mother died today, in my house, in this bed, in a dining room turned bedroom. I was there. I watched it happen. She had lung cancer, or, as she liked to call it, the big C. And today, as her body slowly shut down, and her mind floated in and out of consciousness, I talked to her. I told her everything I lacked the courage to say before, when she could talk back and acknowledge my fear of losing her. And I kept talking as I watched her chest rise and fall, slower and slower, until it finally stilled. I talked to her as she died, and because I still had so much more to say, I kept talking for hours after her body shut down. I told her how much I loved her, how much she impacted my life. I told her how much she drove me absolutely crazy, and yet I couldn’t imagine my life without her.

So this wasn’t Ma, couldn’t possibly be. “You’re dead.”

The figment of my imagination shook her head and frowned, then moved closer, and looked me straight in the eye. I could see through her to the candelabra on the wall. Wow, it looked dusty. When was it last dusted?

“Of course I’m dead, Angela. I’m a ghost.”

I shook my head, trying hard not to believe her, but I just didn’t feel like I was sleeping, so God help me, I did.

My name is Angela Panther and I see dead people. Well, one dead person, that is, and frankly, one was enough.

**Contact Carolyn:  Website   Email:  carolynridderaspenson@gmail.com   Facebook   Twitter

Filed Under: Carolyn Ridder Aspenson Tagged With: Author, Carolyn Ridder Aspenson, Chick-Lit, Guest Feature, Guest Interview, Unfinished Business; An Angela Panther Novel, Writers

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