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Little Sacrifices

July 9, 2013 Leave a Comment

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“Little Sacrifices” by Jamie Scott

About “Little Sacrifices”:

How much would you risk to stand up for your beliefs?

When the Powell family moves to Savannah Georgia in the late 1940s, they hope against hope that they’ll be welcomed. But they’re Northerners and worse, they’re civil rights advocates almost a decade too early. The American South is deeply segregated.

At first their daughter, May, can pretend they’re the same as everyone else. It means keeping quiet when she knows she should speak up, but it’s worth the sacrifice to win friends. Unfortunately her parents are soon putting their beliefs into action. And when they wake to find that they’re the only family on the block with a Ku Klux Klan cross blazing on their front lawn, the time comes for them to finally decide between what’s easy and what’s right.

HOW IT BEGINS

“Fifty–five years has made me a Savannahian by inclination if not origin. Everyone who meets me hears the taffy pull drawl of a native and feels the Southern hospitality for which we are known. They are surprised to find that I was once a Yankee, so well have I acclimated. The process began when we moved, but will never really be complete.”

**About the author:

Chick lit author Michele Gorman has a women’s fiction alter-ego

Known for her best-selling chick lit (the Single in the City series and Bella Summer Takes a Chance), Michele also writes women’s fiction under the name Jamie Scott and today sees the re-launch of her first novel, Little Sacrifices. This atmospheric, evocative depiction of the American South may just be the perfect summer read for fans of The Secret Life of Bees or To Kill A Mockingbird.

**Contact the author:

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**Buy “Little Sacrifices”:

Amazon – US   Amazon – UK

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It’s a Happy Friday

June 28, 2013 2 Comments

SmileyFaceOn yesterday’s blog post (read HERE), I announced that I’ve decided to go the self-publishing route.  I want to thank you all for the sweet comments and congratulations.  While I know there will be ups and downs on this exciting journey I’m embarking upon, I look forward to, as my dad says “pressing that button,” and sharing my books with the world.  A special thank you goes out to my Chick Lit Goddesses Facebook group.  You ladies are truly amazing and so supportive, and I love you all!

Anyway, today’s blog post is about being happy once a decision has been made.  Since deciding to self-publish, not only has my stress level gone down immensely.  For a couple of weeks, okay maybe months, I’ve been a little (or, depending who you ask, very) grumpy.  I would go out with friends and Ranger games, but I wasn’t really there.  My mind was on achieving my goal of becoming an author.  I’d try to have a relaxing evening with my hubby and again, I still wasn’t in the moment.

Finally, while at work one day, I had enough of just shuffling through life and telling people I’m still deciding which direction I’m going.  Upset with myself and feeling like I was shuffling through life in limbo, I didn’t want to wait anymore and that’s when I made up my mind.

Am I still stressed?  Yeah, a little bit, but it’s more of a feeling of anxious and excitement, and I’m not nearly as grumpy…

So, tonight when I go to Ranger’s game, I tend on enjoying my night and cheering on my favorite team!

**GO RANGERS**

TexasProud

Filed Under: Isabella Tagged With: Chick-Lit, Happy Friday, Self-publishing, Stress, Writers, Writing

Kind of an Announcement: It’s Time for Me to Move Forward…

June 27, 2013 49 Comments

It’s been a long time coming that I share this blog post with you, my devoted readers, but I’m excited to share this with you.  A lot has gone on since November, and posted this, which I titled “Why I’ve Decided To Self-Publish”.

There is nothing I want more than to be an author.  It’s important to me because while I’m interested in a lot of other things, writing is the one thing I see myself doing for the rest of my life.  It’s the only thing I want to do.

Here’s what I have done to achieve the goals of being an author:

  • Written a book, (2 of them, actually)
  • Worked with 2 AMAZING editors
  • Have given my second book, THE RIGHT DESIGN, to beta readers — (you know who you three are and I love y’all!)
  • And have had  TRD professionally critiqued by two brilliant ladies — (you two ladies are pure gems!)
  • **Currently, I’m still trying to fine-tune my first MS, REDEFINED DREAMS

As you can see, I’m missing the main part of becoming an author…BEING PUBLISHED!  With the love and support of my family they encouraged me to give the traditional route a try first, so I did.  I have sent queries and chapters of my MS to several publishing companies, but have had, so far, been rejected six times.  I’m okay with being rejected, after all, it’s part of the business.  At first, I kept my rejection to myself (and still haven’t told most people) because I really didn’t know how to feel about it, but as each rejection came my way it led me to think more seriously about the modern way about being published, which is to self-publish.  I’m proud of myself for even trying because sending querying my MS was a huge step for a shy woman like me.

Years have passed since I’ve written my two books and I have a lot of ideas in mind, so in order to write them and continue on as an author, here’s what I need a plan, so here’s the announcement: I will be self-publishing THE RIGHT DESIGN.  If you read my blog post that I linked above, then you know a few reason why I’m looking forward to taking on this challenge (from writer to author).

Whew!  It feels so good to share the adventure and path I’ll be taking!  Out with the stress of waiting and rejection, and bring on the stress of a self-published author – ;)!

Here’s what I’ll be working on now, along with the fine-tuning I mentioned above:

  • Looking through beta readers advice and comments
  • Writing yet another draft of TRD, thanks to the help of my critique ladies
  • Reading “The Complete Guide to Self-Publishing“!

And, to share some inspiring words from author have been rejected, click HERE!

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M.K. Ducote

June 1, 2013 1 Comment

M.K.Ducote

About author, M.K. Ducote:  M.K. Ducote grew up in the small town of Davie, Florida. Eager to see more of the world, M.K. studied abroad in Melbourne, Tokyo and Paris as an undergraduate, studying business finance, art history and classics, and interned with Sotheby’s auction house in New York and Melbourne. The eternal scholar, M.K. went on to law school and studied international law and human rights in Cape Town and Lima, graduating with a J.D. from the University of Florida and an LL.M. from the University of Miami.

Having seen the world, M.K. settled down to practice law and met her husband, Chapman Ducote, a professional racecar driver and entrepreneur with over 14 career podiums under his belt.

Tossed into the exciting and scandalous world of motorsports, M.K. was enthralled by the behind-the-scenes drama. M.K. quickly turned to her life-long passion and set pen to paper, plucking from real life the colorful settings and scenes of her fiction series, Naked Paddock.

Each year, M.K. Ducote embraces her passion for travel and writing, accompanying her husband to racing circuits all over the world and gathering inspiration for her high-octane novels. When not on the road, the couple calls home to Miami Beach, Florida.

INTERVIEW

Describe yourself in five words:  Curious, playful, driven, thoughtful, messy.

Have you always liked to write?  Yes, it’s in my blood. Since I was five years old, I have written little short stories and have loved escaping into fiction. Every day that I work on Naked Paddock, I’m happy at my desk. It took eight years of school, two law degrees and a thriving law practice for me to realize that nothing else would be able to entertain or sustain me like writing, so I put my legal career on the shelf and dedicated myself to writing full-time.

 Who or what inspires you?  My initial inspiration to write came from my mom. She’s a great storyteller and when I was very young we used to make up stories to entertain each other. I think it was that foray into imagination that got me hooked on creating my own adventures on paper and bringing my own quirky characters to life. My inspiration to write a racing novel, however, came from my husband. When I first met Chapman, I knew nothing about racing. As I was thrown into the world of motorsports and started traveling to races with him, I was shocked. Fistfights, love affairs, lawsuits—the drama behind-the-scenes in the racing world is crazy! That’s when I realized I had an opportunity at my fingertips to open a new world to readers’ eyes and show them what really goes on behind-the-scenes. I started taking notes and collecting ideas from real life at the track and never looked back.

What made you want to write a book?  I’ve written short stories and poetry all my life, but in the past, no single idea captivated my attention for more than a short story. When I began traveling to races and saw the unending glamour and gossip of international motorsports, I knew I’d hit upon an idea and a world of characters that would entice me not only through a novel, but through an entire fiction series.

Walk us through a typical day in your life:  Typical Day? Those two words are foreign! On a day-to-day basis, I’m tossed in a lot of different directions. When I’m not traveling on the racing circuit, or filming for TV, or doing some last minute legal work for one of Chapman’s companies, then my days usually start at 9 (begrudgingly!) with a pot of tea for breakfast, and I’ll start writing right away in my pajamas. Around lunch, I’ll go to a café in Miami Beach (like Icebox or Olivers) by myself to eat and write a little more. In the afternoon, I’ll do some type of exercise—spinning, kickboxing, swimming or yoga, then cook dinner and watch an HBO show with Chapman (or try to sweet-talk him into an episode of Downton Abbey!). After that, it’s back to the book. My creativity seems to come alive between midnight and 3am. I love writing late at night when the world is sleeping. That’s definitely when I get my best work done.

What was the writing/editing/publishing process like for you?  I loved every minute of the writing process and it came very easily—what is writer’s block anyway? The editing process, on the other hand, was tortuous. I had two different editors, and it was a lot of push and pull to make everyone happy. As for the publishing process, it was a bit confusing in the beginning and took so much time, effort and research, that I ended up forming my own publishing company, so in the future I can help other authors through the process now that my feet are wet.

How did you come up with the title of your book?  Some people are initially confused by the title Naked Paddock because they associated the word “Paddock” with horses. In car racing, the Paddock is the area of the racetrack where the drivers hang out and where most of the drama takes place. I went through a series of working titles, but in the end I wanted to introduce a racing term right from the start and when we first hit upon Naked Paddock, Chapman and I looked at each other and knew we’d found it.

Where is your favorite writing location?  My favorite place to write is at whatever trackside hotel we happen to be staying at while Chapman practices with his team for the next race. For each Grand Prix, there are at least two or three days of practice and since his attention is completely absorbed with preparation, I get large blocks of free time to write. With racecars roaring around the track rattling the hotel walls and constant drama unfolding in the Paddock, I couldn’t ask for a better place to write!

What are you reading?  I’m always reading five or six books at a time. I devour everything from ancient Greek Tragedies and Ovid to classics by Tolstoy, Chekov, Austen, Fitzgerald and Hemingway to contemporary fiction like Gone Girl and Savages. I just finished re-reading Gone With the Wind, and lately, I’ve been reading everything I can find about great historical women, like Jackie Kennedy and Wallis Simpson.

 If “Naked Paddock” were turned into a movie who would you want to play the parts?  Actually, I think it would be quite cool to have real drivers in the parts. On the whole, professional racecar drivers are young, confident, sexy and used to constant media attention. So, Hollywood might be an easy step for them! Patrick Dempsey is a professional driver that we bump into at all the races. He really seems to love and understand the sub-culture of racing, so he would be great to have onboard.

What is it like to be married to a racecar driver?  It definitely keeps things interesting! It’s a lot of travel and suitcase living, which thankfully I love. Of course, when Chapman’s behind the wheel it’s nerve-wracking, but I delude myself into thinking that advances in safety equipment make the sport fairly safe. To be a racecar driver, you need to have a screw loose, and in general, drivers are a pretty passionate and eccentric lot, but they are also entertaining and exciting, which to me is worth the tradeoff!

Can you tell us about any upcoming projects?  Chapman and I have some exciting plans in the works for more reality TV and guest appearances in the near future, and we are organizing a book tour. I’m also working on the second novel in the Naked Paddock series (and loving every minute!), and Chapman is mid-season, so we’re traveling to all of his races and gathering more plot lines and drama for Books 2 and 3!

M.K.AndHusband**Contact M.K. Ducote:

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Email: MK@NakedPaddock.com

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“Naked Paddock” by M.K. Ducote

CHAPTER 1

PALM BEACH, FLORIDA

The Ferrari FXX lurched into sixth and for a split-second Palm Beach International Raceway was silent in the morning light. Then the gears of the 6.3-liter V12 bit and the Italian engine roared with violence down the straightaway toward Turn 10. The sky was robin’s egg blue and the only constant. Everything else blurred past the slim windows, stretched by speed.

“Ready for a real ride?” Coleton asked, checking on his passenger from the corner of his eye.

The man’s lips were pulled back into a grimace, and a drop of sweat had splattered the inside of his visor, but his dark eyes glimmered. Coleton piloted through the double apex corner, then slapped the transmission paddle into fourth with more force than necessary.

“Let’s give the nanny a break, shall we?”

Coleton leaned into the Momo five-point harness and switched the Manettino system to Race. To the untrained eye, nothing had changed, but Coleton felt the smallest shudder through the wheel. Ahhhh…Pure Driving Experience.

With a flick of the wrist he had disabled the ABS system, which prevents wheel lock under heavy braking, and various other safety measures and driver aids, relying on nothing but his own skill and confidence to keep the machine under control. Coleton coaxed the FXX even faster, opening her up and letting her run reckless like a thoroughbred on its first hot lap.

The rev limiter danced dangerously at 8000 rpms. His car was the only rig racing at PBIR that Thursday, but Coleton protected his line and pushed through the corners like he was fighting for the Championship at Atlanta with one lap left.

Like all racecar drivers, Coleton detested the “nanny” systems installed on today’s supercars. These “electronic safety nets” are designed to safeguard normal drivers from the power of Formula 1 technology and protect against liability suits. Professional drivers, however, hate any dilution of complete control and are generally faster without them. Coleton was here to drive the FXX—not babysit the thing.

After one more hot lap around the 2.25-mile circuit, Coleton peeled off into pit lane and pressed his thumb on the Limiter button. The car instantly fell to 60 kph. The sound of the engine dropped to a low, chugging growl. The men could breathe more easily, and peripheral objects slid back into view, sharp and clear.

“See this button?” Coleton asked. The passenger nodded. “This button drops the gas to the engine and slows us down to the Pit Speed Limit. In a race, you get a penalty if you come into the pits too quickly.”

The passenger nodded again, but Coleton doubted he was processing any information yet. His eyes were glazed, and his brain was still a swamp of adrenaline.

The instant the Ferrari FXX halted in the pits, people swarmed around it. Beyond the low pit wall, two models with identical blonde hair that fell to their waists jumped up and down in tiny leaps, clapping their hands with glee. One slid a diamond-studded iPhone from the back pocket of her cut-offs and took a picture of the car.

Coleton pulled his door handle, and the gull-wing door folded upward. He popped his five-point harness and ducked under the shoulder strap. At six feet, he was tall for a racing driver. His shoulders were strong and wide and tapered down to a narrow waist. Coleton was naturally athletic and built for speed like an Olympic sprinter, whereas most other endurance drivers looked like marathoners. When he worked out he had to be careful not to bulk up so he could fit in the cockpit. He swung his legs over the wide doorsill and hopped into the sunlight.

The passenger wasn’t having such an easy time. He struggled to untangle the harness until Nicolas “Nico” Costa came over to help him. Once free of the belts, he stuck both legs out the door, but the doorsill was too wide for his feet to reach the ground. The fat man wiggled them up and down as he waited to be extricated. Nico motioned to one of his dealership employees, and it took both of them, working together, to hoist him out like a cadaver—feet first.

Nico owned Ferrari Fort Lauderdale, one of the largest Ferrari dealerships in the country. Sometimes he gained access to rare Ferrari supercars, but seldom could he convince even the richest buyer to cough up over a million dollars for candy they hadn’t tasted. So, a few times a year he rented out PBIR for the day, and brought in a professional to give the buyer a bat-out-of-hell ride and a glimpse of what he could own. It was great PR, but he needed a good driver to prove the product.

Nico and Coleton had been friends for years, since before Nico ever dreamed of owning a dealership, when he was a senior studying business at the University of Miami during the week and playing on Miami Beach on the weekend. Nico’s father, a Greek shipping magnate, agreed to bankroll the dealership, partly in hopes of making a businessman of his middle son, and partly as a way to guarantee himself access to the world’s most exotic cars. For certain limited production supercars it doesn’t matter how much money you put on the table; it’s connections that secure the keys.

When the sparkle of this sale first surfaced, Nico knew Coleton was the driver for the job. Ferrari agreed to fly in one FXX from Italy for a single track day. Nico didn’t have much time to close the deal.

Coleton unzipped the top of his racing suit to let in some air, and pushed his sweaty dark hair back off his brow. His face was classically handsome, and he knew it: high forehead, straight nose, full lips. His emerald eyes were startling at first glance, not hazel, but full-fledged green.

“Water?” Nico asked.

“Thanks.”

In the distance, Coleton heard a low muted rumble. “Is that thunder?” he asked, turning. A few dark clouds had begun to gather in the east.

“Welcome to South Florida,” Nico said. “Where storms roll in quick, and the money rolls in quicker.”

“You’re such a cheese ball,” Coleton laughed.

Nico wiped sweat from his brow. His face was full and soft, with deep-set eyes. He wore his unruly hair thick and parted in the middle. The collars of his polo shirts were always popped upward, and he was rarely seen without a sweater draped around his shoulders—even on sweltering days like this one.

Coleton squinted at the bottle in his hand. “Do I look like a spring water kind of guy?” He tossed it back to Nico.

“What’s wrong with spring water?”

“Nothing, if you don’t mind drinking water animals have been pissing in for the past hundred years.”

Coleton walked over to the bag that carried his racing gear and searched around in the bottom. He pulled out a bottle of Essentia.

“What’s the difference?”

“That’s like asking what’s the difference between a taxi cab and my 1100 horsepower racing machine. Essentia water is purified by reverse osmosis, infused with electrolytes, alkalinized to 9.5pH and restructured using Ionic Separation Technology.”

“Do you have any idea how anal retentive you are?”

“I’m a professional athlete.” Coleton smiled his perfect print-ad smile, tilted back his head and took a long sip.

“I mean, the fact that you carry all that information around in your brain. It’s disturbing.”

“It’s probably why my body looks like a temple, and yours, well, could use a little work.” Coleton poked Nico in the stomach.

Panting, the buyer waddled up to them, still trying to connect the two sides of the built-in belt on his new Ferrari race suit, but they were too short to meet over his protruding belly. The models trailed behind him, their legs impossibly long, like stilted circus performers.

“That was amazing. Really amazing. We went fast!” he said, eyes gleaming. He had shaggy black hair, olive skin and the soft look of a man unaccustomed to manual labor.

“That wasn’t fast,” Coleton said distractedly, as he and Nico stared past him at the models. They were giggling and whispering in each other’s ears.

“I think now I try,” the buyer said, stroking his cropped black mustache.

“Oh, that wouldn’t be possible,” Coleton said. “There’s no—” Nico grabbed Coleton by the shoulder before he could say another word.

“Come here,” he hissed. He pulled Coleton into the catering tent. Behind them, one of the models tugged on the tab of the buyer’s collar, while the other pinched his wide nose playfully.

“Look, Al-Aziz is Saudi money, okay? Stupid money. He’s a prince for Chrissakes. If he likes this car he’s going to order two more for his cousins. He owns—”

“Aren’t there only 29 of these in the world?” Coleton interrupted. He tipped his head back for another sip of water.

“Thirty.”

“How did you manage to get your hands on three?”

“I didn’t. Not yet. But, I will. I had to put my ass on the line to get this one flown over. Tonight it gets sent back to Maranello. If we don’t make this happen now, I’m jeopardizing my whole relationship with Ferrari.”

“It’s getting late in the day,” Coleton said, lifting his eyes to the darkening cumulus clouds. “That storm’s really moving in.”

“Al-Aziz just bought an indoor racetrack in Dubai, modeled after the Monte Carlo Formula 1 track,” Nico continued. “An indoor racetrack, man! The power of this car is intoxicating. Four laps behind the wheel and he’ll be sold.”

Coleton shook his head and moved to a folding table where he had left his helmet bag. “You’re out of your mind if you think I’m getting in a car with that yokel at the wheel.”

Unzipping a side compartment, Coleton pulled out his BlackBerry. He quickly checked his text messages. Nothing earthshattering. Then, opened his voicemails. One new message from a number he didn’t recognize.

“Listen to me—” Nico began. Coleton raised his index finger, then held the phone to his ear and played the message.

“Hi Coleton?” a female voice asked. She sounded both perky and nervous, as if she had consumed a pot of coffee before breakfast. “This is Candice. From last night. Your housekeeper let me out. I had a great time. We should do it again. I realized I never gave you my number. It’s 305—”

Coleton hit the delete button and dropped his phone back into his helmet bag. He turned to Nico and raised his dark eyebrows in a make-it-quick look.

“Al-Aziz will take it slow,” Nico said. “I know that he—”

Coleton cut him off. “Forget it. I’m not risking a shunt in the off season for some rich asshole.” Coleton’s green eyes glimmered. “Not even for a ‘prince.’” Coleton made air quotes around the word. He picked up his helmet to pack it away. Nico glared at him.

“Listen—Al-Aziz used to drive Rally cars somewhere in the Middle East. He knows something about driving. It’ll be fine.” Nico grabbed the helmet from Coleton’s hand and shook it at him for emphasis. “Just get in the car!”

“Just because he drove a Jeep in the desert doesn’t mean he can drive one of the fastest cars on the planet. You want your sale?” Coleton asked. “Then you take him!”

“You know I can’t take him. You can tell him what to do, how to take the corners, everything. He’ll listen. Besides, he wants to drive with you. His son has a poster of you on his bedroom wall.”

“Not going to happen,” Coleton said. His voice was quiet, but he looked Nico right in the eye. “To that guy, this is all just a video game.” Coleton motioned at the fire red Ferrari and the racetrack beyond. “Just a lap in Forza 4.”

Then, Nico brightened with an idea. “I’ll cut you in on the sale.”

That was the magic incantation, and they both knew it.

“No,” Coleton said, grabbing his helmet back. “You’ll cut me in on all three sales.”

A wide white smile lit up Coleton’s face. The kind of smile that gets what it wants.

“Ten percent,” Nico offered.

“Twenty,” Coleton said.

“Fifteen and no more.”

“Where do you own ‘em?”

“One point seven each,” Nico said through a smile, then bobbed his head. “And, he’s paying two.”

“Two million for a car that isn’t even street legal?” Coleton whistled. He did some quick calculations in his head. He wasn’t a math genius, but when it came to money Coleton could be quick on his feet.

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“Four laps. That’s it. For a hundred and thirty-five grand I’ll eat a little shit,” Coleton snickered as he pulled on his fireproof balaclava, then his helmet. Coleton loved when things fell in his lap.

ou must get some serious ass,” said Al-Aziz, turning to Coleton. “Come on, you can tell me.”

With three laps under their belt, Coleton began to relax. One Hundred and Thirty-Five Grand. For each corner, he had showed Al-Aziz brake markers long before the ones he used, and Al-Aziz had done well.

“Eyes on the road, Your Highness,” Coleton instructed. “Into Turn 4, stay far to the right, then turn in for a late apex and clip the curb. See that red and while curbing?” Al-Aziz nodded.

Al-Aziz had really picked up his pace on the last lap, and Coleton was surprised by his creeping boldness. Maybe he was more experienced than Coleton gave him credit for and was finally settling in.

“Good,” Coleton said, as they coasted through the corner. “Now make the right-hander through Turn 5. Go ahead and shift up to third.”

“Too slow.” Al-Aziz giggled. He paused at third before pushing the car into fourth, and the engine wailed an octave higher. Turn 5 came fast, but Al-Aziz managed the speed through as the RPMs dropped. He picked it back up, accelerating down the short straight. The speedometer waved to 80.

“Take third,” Coleton instructed. He shifted his weight uneasily.

Al-Aziz pretended not to hear. Then mid-corner, he realized Coleton was right. He shifted down to third quickly, but the car still squirmed beneath them.

“Turn 7 is tricky,” Coleton warned, his voice rising. Al-Aziz snuck back to fourth. “Slow down,” Coleton ordered, as the car launched over an undulation in the pavement.

“I only go one way and that’s up!” Al-Aziz shouted. The rear of the car skidded sideways, but Al-Aziz juggled the steering wheel and made it through the left right complex. His eyes were wide and bulging, as he pushed into the sweeping right-hander of Turn 8.

“Easy!” Coleton yelled. They narrowly missed fishtailing into the wall at the exit of Turn 8.

Coleton watched the tachometer wave into the red. Al-Aziz shifted to fifth, redlined, then sixth. They roared down the longest straight: 120, 130, 140, the fastest speed of his session.

“Okay, you got your speed. Shift back to fifth, fourth, slow down,” Coleton demanded. A drop of rain splattered the windshield. 150, 160. “Slow down, now!” Al-Aziz would need to brake earlier and softer because of the changing weather conditions.

Suddenly it struck Coleton. This asshole wanted to hit 180. Probably all day he’d held it in his mind, the roundness of it, like a hot babe. A mile every 20 seconds. Now the pitch of the roaring engine swept higher. 160, 170. This was Al-Aziz’s last chance to see the needle sweep across the dial to his target. He was going for it, and there was no way for Coleton to stop him. 175…

“Brake, now!” Coleton screamed over the shrieking engine. On instinct his foot shot out and hit the foot well where the brake would have been, if he had been driving. They were coming in too hot. Way too hot for the wet conditions.

All professional racecar drivers have crashed, big. It’s not a question of if, it’s a question of when. Coleton’s crashes fell under many categories: embarrassing, stupid, dangerous, asshole-puckering, and then there was that one crash two years ago—life threatening. Like his peers, Coleton could recall every intimate detail of each crash sequence. Even years later, he could describe a two-second crash with intense clarity: what he saw, heard, smelled. He was about to add another slow motion video to his mental library.

Al-Aziz nailed the brakes, and Coleton felt the wheels lock instantly. Recognition dawned. Without even a glance at the F1 style switches, Coleton knew what was happening, frame by frame. He had forgotten to switch the Manettino off its Race setting, and the anti-lock braking system was disengaged.

When the wheels of a car lock under heavy braking, professional drivers do the opposite of what human nature dictates: they release them gently, and can vaguely feel through the pedal the level of adhesion available to the tire. They keep just enough pressure on the pedal to extract every iota of tire adhesion before the tires lock and a slide begins. No more. No less.

An amateur, on the hand, hits the brakes as hard as possible, aggressively trying to stop. Once the car starts to slide, an amateur never unlocks the wheels, which would allow the tire to rotate and use its adhesion capabilities to slow the car. The first mistake induces fear, which brings on panic and then the whole cataclysmic effect takes hold. Control is lost. Physics takes charge.

Al-Aziz’s leg locked into place on the brake, as if trying to thrust the pedal through the floor. His brown knuckles went white, clenching the wheel. The huge Brembo brake calipers clamped like sharks teeth on the ceramic rotors, the wheels locked, the Ferrari slid.

Coleton knew they were going into the wall at the end of the straight. He also knew once they slid off the track the wet grass would accelerate their momentum. Physics. The 2,600 lb Ferrari flew off the asphalt and through the Michelin trackside banner like a bobsled on an Olympic run.

“Release the brakes and pitch the car!” Coleton yelled. “Turn the wheel!”

By throwing the car sideways at the last instant, a pro driver can enhance the deceleration and change the trajectory to a side impact. The broader surface area of a side impact dissipates more energy and reduces the severity of a crash.

Al-Aziz remained frozen, unable to process the order. His eyes stared straight ahead. Out the windshield, Coleton saw the Armco barrier approach, frame by frame.

“Fuck me,” Coleton hissed.

Coleton spent most of his time in lightweight prototypes that slowed more quickly even when out of control and off of the racing surface. He had forgotten how much weight becomes the enemy in racing. The Ferrari was like a red missile careening into the wall.

The markings of prior visitors came into focus. Rubber marks, green paint, yellow paint, missing chunks of concrete the size of a fist. Maybe the others walked away unscathed, Coleton thought briefly. Maybe.

The wall grew larger. Click. Click. Click. His memory registered every frame.

“Hands off the wheel!” Coleton screamed the instant before impact, yet another counterintuitive step a pro driver takes a millisecond before going in hard to prevent a matched set of broken arms.

Al-Aziz released the wheel, as if electrified, all ten fingers extended in the air.

The initial crunch was surreal in its gentleness, as the bumper disintegrated. The front-mounted radiators exploded. The hood flew off as the Ferrari continued to compress into the Armco. Like taking a stack of crackers and bashing them with your fist on the counter, the bits and pieces disintegrated while debris shot outward: pieces of glass, shards of carbon fiber, bent aluminum from the chassis.

Coleton heard that familiar initial crunch, smelt the steam from the burst radiators. He could feel the mounting points rip out of the carbon fiber monocoque chassis. Then…

BANG.

Coleton felt the jolt and knew exactly what it meant. The expendable front of the car had been destroyed, its parts dissipating energy as the car slammed forward with huge kinetic force. Then came the last stand, Ferrari’s Alamo, the safety tub: the thick carbon fiber structural element designed to stop the accordion effect of a frontal crash. The fist obliterating the crackers suddenly met the granite countertop. After thousands of engineering hours, the tub did what it was supposed to do.

The Ferrari stopped dead. The sudden stop with his right foot deep in the foot well shot fiery pain through Coleton’s leg. There was a hiss of steam as hot fluids dripped into the wet grass. Then silence. Complete silence. Just the faint sound of a few raindrops splattering the wad of carbon fiber and steel that used to be a state-of-the-art Ferrari. Super toy for the super rich.

“You alright?” Coleton yelled, grimacing. The engine had cut out and his words came out louder than he expected.

Al-Aziz grunted and let out a string of words Coleton didn’t understand.

“Yes or no?”

“Yeah…I think so,” Al-Aziz said, his voice groggy.

“Your arms?”

“Good.”

“You’re lucky,” Coleton said, as he pulled his harness release. “Somebody would’ve been wiping your ass for the next two months.”

Coleton pulled the door handle but it stuck. He forced the wing-like door upward, and swung his legs over the doorsill. Electric pain shot up his right leg. Using his triceps he hoisted himself onto the doorsill. Then, he braced himself against the car and stood up on his left leg. He took a breath and tested the sole of his right foot on the ground like a lame horse. Pain exploded up his calf and the metallic taste he’d met more than a few times flooded his mouth. He lifted his foot off the ground, suddenly queasy, and knew. It’s broken.

Coleton ducked his head to see Al-Aziz fiddling with his harness. He was in shock, but he appeared to be fine. Let the paramedics pull the fat bastard out.

Although carbon fiber shards littered the track, there was no fire risk. Coleton hopped away from the wreck, right leg cocked at a right angle, and sat on a stack of tires that made up part of the crash barrier. He felt his temperature rising with the pain, the first prickle of sweat, as a few drops of cold rain needled his scalp.

Nico tumbled out of the pit truck, his legs moving before they hit the ground. He looked at Al-Aziz still buckled in the driver’s seat, but ran straight to Coleton. Coleton pointed to his right leg and shook his head.

“Is it broken?”

“Pretty much.” Coleton shrugged.

“Maybe it’s just a sprain. Let’s get you to the hospital.”

“It’s not my first rodeo, Nico.” Coleton looked him in the eye.

Coleton lay in the bed of the pit truck and they rumbled down the track toward the pits. He watched the paramedics struggle with Al-Aziz, pulling him from the driver’s seat headfirst. Coleton squeezed his eyes shut and cut the scene from view. Fat Bastard.

The truck shuddered to a stop on pit lane.

“Bring my car around,” Coleton demanded, as Nico appeared at the tailgate.

“There’s another ambulance on the way,” Nico offered. “It should be here any minute. They’ll check your leg out and take you to the hospital.”

“It’s broken. I told you. The paramedics aren’t going to fix it. My keys are in my helmet bag. I’m not leaving my car here.”

Nico recognized Coleton’s tone of voice and knew there was no use digging his heels in. Nico pulled Coleton’s silver Ferrari F12 streetcar next to the truck, hopped out and opened the passenger door for him.

“What are you doing?” Coleton asked, still sitting on the tailgate of the truck. Nico looked at him blankly. “You think I’m letting you drive? I’m driving.”

“Your leg is broken,” Nico scoffed.

“You think I don’t know that?”

Using Nico’s shoulder as a crutch, Coleton hopped to the car and lowered himself in. His leg was throbbing. He needed ice. But there, behind the wheel and in control, he immediately felt better. Nico got in the passenger seat and shrugged at his dealership employees as they stared open mouthed.

The F12 had a paddle shifter rather than a traditional gated Ferrari shifter with a separate clutch, so Coleton could drive it even with one leg. He had always complained that with paddles the F12 didn’t stay true to the Ferrari tradition. Coleton was a purist in some respects and enjoyed heel-toe shifting. Then, why would he buy an F12, which only comes with paddles? Coleton’s quick retort was always, “Because, it’s the best.”

They bumped along the road through the gates of PBIR. The rear tires of the F12 spun out, spitting gravel as they fishtailed onto Beeline Highway and sped past the Pratt and Whitney factory.

Coleton had always loved lines. Lines like that black delineation between playing it safe and turning your lights out. Riding those lines is always dangerous, and Coleton knew it. But, he also knew exactly where they lay and he loved playing with them. He loved taking a car just to the edge of out-of-control and keeping it there. So, driving at 98 mph on a public road with his left foot, while his right foot lay broken on the plush prancing horse floor mat wasn’t even close to the edge. That was business as usual.

Twenty-two minutes later, they arrived at Good Samaritan hospital in West Palm Beach. Coleton pulled up to the Emergency Room entrance and revved the engine. It roared under the covered entranceway. The sliding glass doors opened and an attendant stuck his head out. He let out a long, low whistle at the car.

“We need a wheelchair, please,” Nico called. The man nodded his head and disappeared. Returning with one, he wheeled it out the doors toward Nico in the passenger seat.

“Not for me, for him.” Nico nodded at Coleton. The man looked confused, but wheeled the chair around to the driver’s side. Coleton smiled at the man’s disbelief, as Nico pulled him up out of the seat and into the wheelchair.

Nico wheeled Coleton through the sliding doors into the cold, sterile entrance. Everyone in the waiting room stared, not expecting to see a man in a full, Ferrari-red racing suit on a random Thursday afternoon.

“Name, please,” said a woman behind the desk, looking over her glasses.

“This is Coleton Loren,” Nico said.

“Oh, are you a race car driver?” She stood up to get a better look.

“What gave you that idea, sweetheart?” Coleton asked, giving her a good-natured wink.

The woman rolled her eyes, but a smile tugged at her lips. “Have a seat. And fill out these forms.” She passed a clipboard through the slim opening in the glass to Nico.

Coleton’s phone rang. He pulled his BlackBerry out of the jumpsuit hip pocket, and saw the name Ira Goldstein on the screen. Coleton stared in disbelief. Already? Unbelievable!

“What?” Coleton answered.

“Are you kidding me?” Ira asked. “You broke your leg?”

“How the hell do you know that already?”

“I’ve got ears,” Ira said smugly. “You break your leg and your agent has to hear about it from someone else?”

“Calm down, asshole. It only happened half an hour ago. Hey, I gotta go. They’re ready for me,” Coleton lied.

“Where are you?”

“Good Sam.”

“I’m coming over.”

“Like hell you are. You have a plane to catch. And, Ira?”

“Yeah?”

“Try not to piss off Arthur Elrod. I want to race for Elrod Racing next year, and with the $10 million we have in sponsorship from Miller Sunglasses it should be a lay-up deal.”

“Piece of cake. I’ll be back Sunday and we can meet at the Breakers for brunch to celebrate.”

“Why is everything with you about food?” Coleton asked with a smirk. “Fine. But, if you screw up the meeting tomorrow, Ira, so help me God, you may as well stay in New York.” Coleton didn’t wait for a response or a parting farewell before he hung up. He dropped his phone back to his lap. “Great. The word’s out about my leg.”

“Maybe Ira’ll keep it quiet,” Nico said.

“Are we talking about the same guy? The last time Ira stopped talking was in 1983 when he got his tonsils out,” Coleton said, but Nico had already checked out of the conversation and was reading emails on his phone.

Coleton massaged his thigh muscle. The pain was creeping upward.

“Make yourself useful, will ya? Get me something to read.”

Nico continued to stare at his phone. He finished his sentence, then looked up. “What’s that?”

“Get me a magazine.”

Nico strolled over to the wall, perused the clear plastic rack and returned with a tattered magazine.

“Really?” Coleton asked. “Good Housekeeping?”

“It’s all they’ve got,” Nico laughed.

“Sure,” Coleton said, but flipped through it. He needed something to divert him from the pain.

“Coleton Loren?” called a nurse with curly, dirty-blonde hair and navy scrubs.

“It’s pronounced LO-ren, not Lauren. It’s French,” Coleton said.

She looked down at her clipboard and adjusted her glasses. They were attached to a thin silver chain that looped her neck, and the movement sent the chains swinging.

“Whatever you say, Hero.”

After Coleton convinced the nurse, whose name he’d learned was Margaret, that his leg was broken, she wheeled him straight to Radiology for X-rays. She then took him to an exam room and checked his temperature, pulse and blood pressure. When she began to pull up the leg of his racing suit, Coleton winced in pain.

“Okay, then. We’ll do it the hard way.”

Margaret unwrapped a pair of surgical scissors from a metal tray and set them to the edge of his pant leg.

“Are you crazy?” Coleton demanded, pulling his leg out of her hand and flinching again. “This is a five thousand dollar racing suit!”

“Fine,” she said curtly. “Put this on however you want.” She handed him a thin gown with small blue hearts scattered across the fabric. She picked up his chart and made a few notes.

Coleton unzipped the front of his suit and pulled it off his shoulders and down to his waist, exposing the fireproof Nomex long underwear underneath.

“Fair warning, Marge,” he said, as he pulled the long-sleeved Nomex shirt over his head and exposed a muscled torso. “I’m not wearing underwear.”

Coleton started to push the suit down past his waist. With a shake of her head, Margaret dropped his chart in a clear plastic box on the wall and left the room, but not without one last stolen glance.

Coleton managed to get the suit entirely off, except for the right pant leg. He was having a hard time pulling the suit over his toes without igniting fire in his ankle.

The door swung open, and Coleton froze. A beautiful woman in her mid-20s with long, straight blonde hair walked into the room, studying a clipboard. She didn’t look up as she shut the door. She was wearing purple scrubs under a long white lab coat.

“Okay, Mr. Loren. How are we doing today?” she asked, looking up.

“I’m naked,” said Coleton. “How are you?”

“Whoops,” she said, laughing. She held up the clipboard to cover her eyes. “I’ll give you some privacy while you work that out.”

Coleton laughed.

“No, wait…help me.”

She lowered the clipboard to her nose. Her eyes were large and bright blue.

“Can you just pull this pant leg off, please?” Coleton asked.

She grabbed the gown from the tray next to him, shook it open and handed it to him. Coleton leaned back on his elbows, extending his leg into the air. She gently pulled the suit over his foot, then turned her back while he finished putting on the gown.

“Okay, done,” he said. She turned around.

“Right. I’m Dr. Harlow.” She held out her hand.

“Sorry if I startled you,” he said.

“It was nothing.”

“Nothing?” he asked. He was still holding her hand. “I think I’ve just been insulted.”

She pulled her hand away.

“Are you sure you’re a doctor? You’re too hot.”

“I’m a Resident,” she told him. “How about you? First time driving?”

“How tall are you?” he demanded.

“Why don’t you let me do the physical?”

“It’s just a question.”

“I’m 5’11,” she said. “Please lie back.”

“That’s a great height.”

“Let’s see, did the nurse check for HPI?” she asked, more to herself than to him, as she flipped through his chart.

“Oh God, I hope I don’t have that.”

“It means History of Present Illness,” she said, trying to hide her smile. “Have you broken bones before?”

“I’ve broken everything except my femurs,” Coleton said proudly. “Arms. Toes. Fingers. Ankles. Almost every rib, compressed some vertebrae, you name it. I even fractured my skull once.”

“There’s an achievement,” Camilla said. She sat on a rolling stool, slid in front of a computer and entered some notes in the PATS software. Her fingers clicked on the keys. “Could explain a lot.”

“Occupational hazard,” he said.

“You’re a racecar driver?” she asked, nodding at the suit that lay in a heap on the floor. “Were you in a race today?”

“No. I mean, yes, I’m a racecar driver, but the season doesn’t start until March.”

“So, you drive in circles really fast, risk your life and end up in the same place you started?” she asked, turning her head to blink at him.

“It looks more glamorous on TV.”

“If you say so,” Camilla said, standing. She bent over his leg. “Let’s take a look.”

“It’s the other leg,” said Coleton.

She startled, then glanced at his chart.

“Ha, made you look,” he said, grinning.

She shook her head slightly and rolled her eyes. “I bet that works every night at the Holiday Inn bar.”

“You wouldn’t believe.”

Coleton’s leg was swollen and his ankle was turning purple, but no bones had broken the skin.

“Is the pain radiating?”

“Of course. It’s broken,” he said with authority. She raised an eyebrow and tilted her head.

“Let’s see if your X-rays are in the system yet.” Dr. Harlow went to the computer, clicked on a tab and an X-ray of Coleton’s leg appeared on the screen. She leaned in to study it, then angled it toward Coleton.

“Your tibia is broken in two places. See here?” She pointed to two thin lines on the X-ray that Coleton could barely see. “But, they’re only hairline fractures.”

“Motherf—!” Coleton started, but reined himself in, his voice dropping off. “How long will they take to heal?”

“They aren’t too messy. I’d say you’ll be weight-bearing in two months. But, I’ll have the orthopedist come downstairs and take a second look, since you’re an athlete.”

“I’ll be walking in six weeks.”

“Excuse me?” she said. “You’ll walk when we say it’s safe. Until then, I hope you have a comfy chair.”

“Honey, testing starts the end of January. My comfy chair will be the driver’s seat of an 1100 horsepower LMP1 Prototype.” His voice softened. “This is my career. This is what I do.”

She sighed, but humored him. “Testing?”

“Practice laps before the season starts. You ever been to a race? I could get you some passes. After all, you never know when I might need my doctor.”

“First things first.” She made some notes on his chart before placing it back in the plastic box on the wall. “What color do you want your cast?”

“Tell you what. I’ll let you pick the color if you go to dinner with me.”

“Okay, Hotshot. Get the pink,” she said. She extended her hand to Coleton, and he held it a moment longer than necessary. “Someone will be in shortly.” She smiled politely, then left the room.

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Nikki Mahood

May 21, 2013 6 Comments

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About author, Nikki Mahood:  Nikki Mahood was born in Dublin, moving to the UK in the late eighties as a child, she has resided in North Yorkshire ever since.  Distance didn’t just make her heart grow fonder, it made her mind grow too, her grandmother provided the stationary, usually adorned with Ponies of some sort and they wrote to each other regularly.  So began her writing career, starting with silly poems to send her family and nurtured by a love of reading, her overactive imagination and an obsession with Josephine March of Little Women.

Without setting out to write a book, a taster course for The Open University brought Fallon Magee into Nikki’s imagination, followed shortly by one Abner Hagarth-Smythe and suddenly what started as a character exercise became a novel.

After two years of unsuccessful submissions, the idea of self publishing was raised and so began the evolution of Fallen from a manuscript, to a novel, to a Kindle, hopefully yours too.

Nikki works full time and writes whenever possible, watches far too many movies and dedicates a good hour a day to scrolling through Pinterest…

INTERVIEW

Why do you write?  I write because I don’t know what to do with myself if I don’t. I work full time and write whenever I can.  I think Josephine March (from Little Women) really inspired me, my Mum gave me the book as a child and I’ve read it at least once a year ever since.  I see a lot of myself in Jo, not least the writing side of her.

Who is your favorite author?  Hmm, this is difficult, I’ve met so many awesome authors lately, via social media, I read everything that Carey Heywood writes and am a huge fan! Historically I devoured every Patricia Cornwell and Freya North book going and I still read Freyas.  I guess I can’t nail one down universally, it’s absolutely subjective to my mood on any given day.

What was the writing/editing/publishing process like for you?   I went into the whole self publishing thing after a frustrating couple of years of submissions. I was so proud of myself for completing Fallen that I thought the pro-forma letters sent by Agents very tough.  With Fallen I was very arrogant, stuck it on Lulu, made family buy it and didn’t really do much else, expecting people to find it, buy it and make it into a movie.  Being accepted into Chicklit Goddesses has helped me realise that I’m responsible for a lot, editing and proofing, something I’ve done alone so far and my reviews proved it to a detriment to my writing.  I’m going to do it properly this year with Forgotten!

Hard/paperback or eBooks?  Any books!! Any media, reading is what’s important. Whatever you read, reading can only expand your mind and give you a drive to do things you might not have tried otherwise. I know that if I have children I will do exactly the same as my Mum did and get them reading Classics from a young age.

Where is your ideal writing location?   A coffee shop, my laptop on the table and a steaming mug of coffee in front of me! Sunday mornings used to be great for that, but my lactose intolerance put pay to my latte habit!

How many drafts of your books do you typically write before they’re published?  I’m kind of strange, I write blocks in documents and try sew it all together at the last minute, I’m learning that isn’t maybe the best way of doing it! I do change each chunk on a daily basis, a lot of evolution happens to my characters from the initial writing to the completion of the story.

What’s on your desk?  Notepads, a 8/9 inch pile of them! A folio I bought on a whim too! Oh and graffiti, my desk is an old school desk, with the lid and storage bit and all!

If you’re not writing, then you’re probably…:  Watching a movie, reading or at work, not in that order!!

A writer must have…:  Incredibly supportive friends and family, who do stupid things that you can rip off for your books. Most of the silly stories in my books are real things that I’ve altered to suit. That and a lot of equipment, I use my phone, tablet, laptop and notebooks all the time, that’s why it takes me so long to write a book. Because I’ve got stuff everywhere!

What is your favorite word?  I don’t know if I can swear here, if I can, its Bollocks, I love that word and if I can’t, its Epic, which I overuse and sound stupid and undereducated doing so!

Can you tell us about any of your upcoming projects?  I’m starting to knit together the third book in my series, Forgotten, I’m hoping to release it in the summertime, its sticking with Fallon and Abner, but skips forward about five years from where we left them in Forever. A lot has changed for them, and its happening again, possibly worse too! Its become a labour of love as I’m not sure I’ve made the right choices for my characters, because I forget that they aren’t real people. I’ve connected with a lot of people who have suffered major brain traumas via the charity Headway. They’re inspiring and I hope to be able to do them justice, there are a lot of people out there living every day with the devastating effects of traumatic brain injurys.

Nikki’s books!

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**Contact Nikki!:  Website   Facebook   Twitter   Amazon

**Additional comments by Nikki!:  I want to thank Isabella for having me here and for founding the Chicklit Goddesses group on Facebook. I can’t say enough the value of having a network of such supportive and inspirational writers to bounce ideas off and even just to moan at.  There’s no underestimating the power of that when you’re the minority in your friends and family, even community.

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The Lake House

May 20, 2013 1 Comment

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CHAPTER 1

The last few snowflakes drifted to the ground. The nor’eastah, as they called it in New England, had passed; its brutal wake of snow and ice transformed the landscape into a winter wonderland. Downy blankets covered the tree branches, and silver moonlight reflected off the ice-hardened snow. The earth bowed its head in quiet prayer, and the stars awakened from under dark clouds. The wind died to a thick silence that Victoria Rose felt she could almost touch.

She walked along Nagog’s paved road in black high-heeled boots. Cold seeped through the thin soles as salt pellets rolled and crunched under her feet. She’d left Nagog in her late teens, and except for two winters, her visits had been restricted to a few weeks here and there or the summer months. For the past fifty- five years, she’d lived mostly in Southern California’s warmth. There, boots were only an accessory, and there was no need for heavy sweaters underneath a thick, cumbersome jacket. At the moment, a hideous bright blue parka, a loaner from her child- hood friend Molly Jacobs, covered her upper body and made her feel like the Michelin Man.

When Victoria had landed at Boston’s Logan Airport earlier that afternoon, the heavy winds whipped the snow into furious spirals, and she realized she was unprepared to face the cold of her childhood home. When Molly met her at the baggage claim, her friend’s pillow-like body had encased her in a hug and her white hair pressed against Victoria’s chest. “You’re home,” she said, as fellow passengers bumped past them. Molly lifted her head and her blue eyes brimmed with tears. Molly was brown sugar, cinnamon, and vanilla. She was homemade bread cooling on the kitchen windowsill. Warm, doughy hands smooshed Victoria’s angular cheekbones, and Victoria could hear Molly’s thoughts—this day had been too long in coming.

“You’re holding up traffic,” Molly’s husband, Bill, barked as he moved the women away from the escalator.

In the five years since Victoria had seen Bill, his girth had ballooned and the rock-hard fat, so detrimental to an older man’s health, pressed against his pant seams.

“Traffic was awful,” he said. “Billions of taxpayers’ dollars for new tunnels, and the ceiling collapses. They closed the roads and we got stuck in gridlock. I tell ya, no one knows how to build things anymore.”

Victoria slid her arm around his belly, kissed his cheek, and tousled his thin, salt-and-pepper hair. The crinkles around his eyes turned up and reminded her of the little boy who liked to drop spiders in girls’ laps.

Three rose-embroidered suitcases fell onto the conveyor belt, and Bill motioned for the porter. As they walked toward the parking garage, Molly pulled the blue parka from a shopping bag and took Victoria’s red cashmere coat.

“Fashion might work on fifty-degree nights in Malibu, but not here.” She held out the sleeve as if Victoria were one of Molly’s five great-grandchildren. She zipped the front and pulled the hood over Victoria’s head, tying the strings tight. The shiny fabric crushed her short blond waves. Molly stripped the silk scarf from the red coat and wrapped it around Victoria’s neck and mouth.

“Now you’re ready for winter,” she announced.

Victoria continued to walk as she looked at the snow-covered neighborhood illuminated by the moonlight and the metal lan- terns that dotted the street. It was a scene straight from a Thomas Kinkade painting.

The community had been built in the early 1920s by Victoria’s parents and their friends—factory owners and businessmen from the Boston area. Nagog Drive was a quarter-of-a-mile half loop with nine Craftsman bungalows surrounded by thick, knotted oaks, pines, and maples. The five homes across the street from the beach shared a large circular backyard. The other four homes were tucked into the woods along the lake—two on either side of the beach. Every house had a view of the water.

Nagog had been meant as a summer residence, but in 1930, four months after Black Tuesday, the community settled in per-manently. The families banded together, determined to keep their factories open as the American economy fell apart; what one neighbor had, everyone shared. It allowed them a lifestyle of private schooling for their children and protection from the outside world’s strife.

Victoria’s boot slipped on a patch of black ice, and she tightened her stiff muscles to stop the fall. With small steps she skated until her feet found traction against the snow on the side of the road. A broken hip wouldn’t be a good homecoming, she thought.

Throughout the small lakeside community, most of the houses were dark.

The cold tickled her back, and a shiver pulsed up her spine. She pushed her gloved hands deep into her pockets and looked toward Molly and Bill’s place nestled on the side of the beach, behind bare hundred-year-old maples. Smoke plumes rose from the brick chimney and the light was still on in the kitchen. The brown clapboards and snow-covered pitched roof reminded her of the gingerbread houses she’d created with her granddaughter, Annabelle.

It was too dark to see the tree house in the big oak behind their home. An architect had designed it with two rooms and a wrap-around porch. When she was little, Victoria and her girlfriends would play tea party while the boys played cowboys and Indians. On hot summer nights, the porch became their stage as Victoria directed her friends in shows performed for their parents.

Victoria shivered, breathing in air that froze her lungs and reminded her of a snowflake’s taste. As children, she and her friends would lie in the snow with wings outlined around their shoulders as they closed their eyes, opened their mouths, and waited for that one special crystal to touch the tip of their warm tongues. Those were the days when it felt like fairies sprinkled golden dust on Victoria’s path so that her feet never had to touch ordinary ground. Days when the sun broke through the clouds, as if an angel’s light reached out from heaven, a sign that everything that sparkled and shined was meant for her.

Time had passed too quickly, Victoria thought. Three generations of Nagog children had played in that tree fort since those days. At seventy-four, how much time did she have—another fifteen or twenty years?

The year of her daughter, Melissa’s, birth, Victoria woke one morning and saw a crease next to her eye. For years, she’d checked daily to ensure that its appearance hadn’t deepened. Thick moisturizing creams were lathered and hundreds of dollars paid to Hollywood salons that promised everlasting youth.

There came a point, after she became a grandmother, when she saw a stranger in the mirror who didn’t match the woman inside. Now her cheeks were smooth, but her eyebrows drooped. Her neck had a thin wattle, and she couldn’t find that first line in the wrinkled fan around her eyes.

Still, she looked better than most women her age. Years of exercise and good nutrition kept her willowy figure firm, and she was proud to say that her abdominals were rock hard. There were teenagers who couldn’t boast the same.

But at this stage of life, what was left? In society’s eyes, living was for the young.

Victoria’s heel broke through the icy snow and her calf sunk into the white drift as she made her way across the beach. With each step she fell deeper, the snow covering her boots as she walked to the picnic table next to the lake. She used her sleeve to hack and push at the white mound until she cleared the seat. The cold stung her backside. Plumes of steam encircled her gloves as she blew to warm her numb fingers.

The full moon reached its highest point, illuminating the expanse of shimmering snow that covered the lake. In her mind, she could see the blue-gray water and the gritty sand the color of maple sugar crystals hidden under the snow.

She’d learned to ice-skate on this lake. Each winter the fathers of the neighborhood would shovel off a large square, and the girls would put on white skates and glide across the ice. Victoria and her friend Sarah would hold hands and spin in circles, laughing as they went faster and faster. The boys chased pucks with hockey sticks while the fathers went farther out on the lake and cut holes in the ice to fish.

Victoria looked to the edge of the beach where the sand met the woods. The raft that had been pulled in from the water for the winter months was covered with snow. Victoria smiled as her memory wandered back to the hours she’d spent on that raft with her childhood friends.

Five bubbles of pink gum grew as the circle of teenage girls in bathing suits lay on their stomachs and blew as hard as they could. Nagog Lake’s waves danced and slapped against the rusted steel drums that held up the wooden platform they floated upon. Muffling giggles, they blew harder, their faces turning red in the bright sunlight. The gum smelled like cotton candy and its aroma filled the air. The sticky material stretched thin and they leaned their heads closer to one another, their eyes wide and smiling as the sides of their bubbles touched. A horsefly buzzed around their heads, and they tried to shake it away without breaking the delicate pink circles.

Victoria closed her lips. From deep within her throat she vibrated the count of three. On three, the girls pressed their faces closer together, trying to pop the bubbles. When the bubbles finally burst against the girls’ cheeks and chins, laughter erupted, and they peeled the candy from their skin.

Victoria pulled a sticky piece from her long, wavy, golden hair. “Bubblegum is one of the world’s best inventions.” When her father had brought her to the World’s Fair last fall, he’d bought her the biggest jar of bubblegum she’d ever seen. She rationed the candy throughout the year, sharing it with her inner circle of friends.

The five girls rolled onto their backs, their heads in a circle, and watched the fluffy clouds sail across the blue sky. Victoria snapped and popped her gum, knowing that her mother couldn’t hear her being unladylike this far out on the lake. She adjusted the strap of her red bathing suit. Unlike the other girls, whose suits covered their stomachs, Victoria had four inches of bare skin above her waist. Though her mother hated the suit, her father had allowed it.

Molly pointed her finger toward the sky. “I see a heart.”

The hot breath of summer air flowed over Victoria’s skin. The day felt like late August instead of the end of May. “You always see hearts,” Victoria said. “It’s because you’re in love with Bill.” Victoria poked Molly’s side and her friend batted Victoria’s hand away.

Born two and a half weeks apart, she and Molly lived next door to one another and roomed together at Dana Hall, an exclusive all-girls’ school in Wellesley, Massachusetts.

Molly sat up and watched the boys of the neighborhood playing volleyball on the beach. She pulled at the top of her bathing suit, trying to cover the new curves that had blossomed on her petite body during freshman year, and fluffed the short skirt of her blue suit over her thighs. Victoria watched Molly stare at Bill. The rosy color that naturally tinted her cheeks blushed brighter. When they’d returned from boarding school last week, Bill had noticed the change in Molly’s body, and instead of pulling her black hair the way he had since early childhood, he now stared at her royal-blue eyes and stumbled over his words when he spoke to her.

“Victoria, let me braid your hair,” Sarah said. She sat up in her plain green suit and nudged Victoria to move.

Victoria sat at the edge of the raft and dangled her feet and calves in the cold water. Sarah knelt behind her and gently combed through Victoria’s knotted hair with her piano-player fingers.

Sarah, Victoria’s other roommate, loved to play with Victoria’s hair, and many nights were spent with Sarah brushing Victoria’s long locks. The two were often mistaken for sisters—both tall and thin, with pale skin and blond hair. They shared the same classes and danced in the school ballet. It wasn’t uncommon for them to exchange makeup and clothing, and from a distance it was hard to tell them apart.

“I see a dog in that cloud,” Evelyn said. She rolled over onto her stomach and crossed her tiny feet behind her thighs. Her short blond hair had dried into fairy curls around her forehead.

Sarah finished the braids and leaned her chin onto Victoria’s shoulder as they watched the boys play volleyball. Victoria pulled Sarah’s arms around her and stared across the lake. Bill, Carl, Joseph, and James were as inseparable as the girls.

“Do you think Carl is cute?” Sarah asked.

“He’s annoying,” Victoria said. Carl was the shortest of the boys and she could already tell at sixteen that he would be as bald as his father.

“I think he’s funny,” Sarah said. She tugged on one of Victoria’s braids. “You just don’t like him because he called you Frog Face when we were little.”

“I socked him in the stomach more than once for calling me that name and he doubled over. Who would want a man who’d been beat up by a girl?” Victoria teased.

“I don’t think you could still beat him up,” Sarah said. “And who else am I going to choose? Molly’s in love with Bill, Evelyn with James, and we all know at some point you’ll stop pushing Joseph away. The two of you are meant to be together. Or are you going to let Maryland have Joseph?”

Maryland stared up at the clouds and didn’t respond to Sarah’s words. The boys had never paid her much attention. Considered a plain Jane, everything about her was average. She was shy and quiet, always following along with whatever anyone wanted to do. But she was also the first to give a hug if she saw that you were sad, the first to take a barrette from her hair to replace the one you’d lost.

When they were little, Joseph Anderson had followed Victoria around, saving her from the other boys’ pranks. His blue eyes had been too big for his thin face and he had a cowlick even the best hair oil couldn’t tame. He’d brought her flowers and chocolate candies and the other kids made kissing noises to tease her. He’d been annoying.

But over the last few years he’d grown into his features. As he jumped up to spike the ball, Victoria noticed the definition in his bare chest, sending butterflies to her stomach. “You know there are men outside of Nagog we could marry.”

“But then we might not be together,” Molly said as she moved closer to Sarah and Victoria. She leaned her head on Victoria’s shoulder and dangled her feet in the water.

Victoria squeezed her friends’ hands. “We’ll always be together. And no matter where life takes us, we’ll always come back and spend the summers here.”

“And when we’re old like our parents, we’ll live here with our children,” Molly said.

“Friends forever,” Sarah whispered.

The memory faded. Victoria looked across the lake into the empty night. As a child there’d been a silver dock built as a protective barrier from the deep end of the lake. The marker for adulthood had been the day you were allowed to run down the dock and dive into the water. When you could swim out to the raft you were no longer considered a baby. The dock had been removed years ago.

How did this world of childhood fond memories become the place where her worst nightmares had happened? There were nights when Victoria awoke from dreams with her breath caught in her rib cage and the dry, bitter taste of regret poisoning her mouth. She feared that she’d never find release from her sorrow. Guilt, which started as a small grain of sand in the gut, had grown to a boulder that shackled her movement. Worst of all was the feeling of loss—a black hole that sucked life’s vibrancy into its vacuum.

Tears froze on Victoria’s cheeks and she brushed away the new ones that fell. She should retire to bed, but in her family’s home, the place she’d known her entire life, the silence echoed with voices from the past like a child’s imaginary monster when the lights go out.

It was in that house, nineteen years ago, that she’d said good- bye to Melissa and watched her daughter return to God. And it was here on this beach that she’d cradled her granddaughter, Annabelle, in her arms and screamed for help, knowing her angel had barely any breath left in her body.

On the other side of the beach, a light went on in Joseph’s home. Through the bare trees she could see his body move around the sunroom. Her frozen legs were hard to control as she crunched through the snow; more than once she almost fell before she reached the road. Joseph looked out the window and she waved. He returned the gesture and turned off the light.

Behind Joseph’s dark house was a path that led to a secluded beach where the two of them had once shared the most intimate of moments. Images from the past played like a movie in her mind, with big band music as the sound track.

Under the thin tablecloth, cool sand had formed curved beds for their half-naked teenage bodies. Beyond the trees she could see the party lights on the patio and hear the music. Had anyone noticed they’d slipped away?

“I love you, Victoria,” Joseph whispered in her ear.

Though he’d once driven her crazy as he followed her around, now her heart craved him when they were apart. The past year of school had been torture—months went by with only letters to fill the distance between them. She’d thought they’d marry as soon as she graduated, but now he was going to war, and it would be years before she could touch him again.

Joseph swirled his tongue in delicious patterns over her neck. Warm sensations flowed through her veins like powerful energy currents and pooled between her hips. Every cell in her body burst with happiness as his hands moved over her thighs. She tried not to jump when he touched the soft, warm mound, but lightning struck her body.

He pulled away.

No one had explained sex to Victoria. Her heart was split between fear and her desire to seal their relationship before he left for the war.

“Please, it’s okay.” She caressed the dimple in his cheek; her

finger fit the indent like a puzzle piece. The little boy with the thin face had grown into a man with chiseled cheekbones and broad shoulders.

He gently covered her body with his as he kissed her—her heart skipped as her body begged with a need she didn’t under- stand. Pain stabbed through her lower abdomen. Her body tightened and she pulled back from his kiss, biting her bottom lip and focusing on the sensation in her mouth.

His hand swept her jaw and he nuzzled her neck. His warm breath tickled her ear, sending shivers across her arms. “Relax. I’ll wait.”

He drew hearts on her cheeks and placed kisses on her forehead. His fingers combed through her hair. Her muscles unwound. She felt the thickness of his body entwined with hers. The lake’s small waves lapped against the shore and he moved in slow circles to its rhythm. Joseph’s masculine fingers stroked her sides. Her eyes widened at the pleasurable sparks firing in her belly.

Giggles broke free. “I’m sorry I’m laughing. It feels wonderful,” she said.

“You’re beautiful,” he said.

His tongue teased her lips as she began to move with him. Deep hunger grabbed her. Her nails dug into his back. Her thighs tightened around his waist. Explosive, joyous waves shook every muscle. Sunlight blazed through her. Her body went limp, the world went dark, and she floated in peace.

Joseph moaned. “Victoria,” he called out through quick breaths.

She felt him move deeper within her. Their lips pressed, merging together. His orgasm flowed through her, pleasure not of her flesh but of his.

He rolled onto his back and she laid her head against his chest.

The breeze tickled her skin. She touched her body, so different to her now: a pleasurable world to discover.

“Again,” she’d said, tracing his stomach. “Again.”

Victoria shivered as the wind picked up. She closed her eyes and placed her hands across her heart. Her toes felt like icicles and burned with pain. Part of her wanted to walk that path behind Joseph’s house and turn back time to when he belonged to her and not to his wife.

She stared at the quaint neighborhood with its gabled snow- covered roofs, bay windows, columned porches, and decks. The community didn’t seem real. Purity, innocence, and old-fashioned values were safe here, as if a protective bubble hovered over the circle of homes and kept them isolated from the outside world.

Most of her childhood friends had moved to Boston during their working years, but they visited Nagog on the weekends, stayed during the summer months, and celebrated every holiday together. When they retired, they returned, as promised, to live once again in the Nagog homes that had been passed down to them. Victoria had been the only one to walk away and live another life.

In the eyes of many in the community, she’d fallen from grace—and no one had pushed her. As Lucifer had done, she’d made choices that barred her from Heaven.

Had she come home to let her demons take her into death or had she returned to Nagog to find the whisper of wind that swirled between the trees and floated over the lake—the call of a little girl who once believed in magic? In this place where the past had been kept alive, she was afraid to pray for forgiveness. But the truth was that Nagog and her childhood friends were all she had left.

MarciNaultPic**About author, Marci Nault:  In 2008 Marci Nault asked the questions, “What do I want from this life? If I wasn’t afraid, and didn’t play by the rules, how would I live?” Her answer was a life-list of 101 Dreams Come True that led her on a journey of self-discovery and adventure. Having completed almost ninety of her life dreams including publishing her novel The Lake House, Marci knows what it means to take risks, go after her deepest desires, live beyond fear, and to fall in love with life, the world and herself.

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Appetites

May 16, 2013 1 Comment

Book review of “Appetites”

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“Appetites” by Karen Frankola

Book Description:

When Sarah suddenly hears from Harry, the Brit she almost married twenty years ago, she decides now is the time to change her life. Sarah has a great job in Manhattan, but she considers herself too fat to have a boyfriend. Harry is visiting New York in four months and she wants to turn back into the girl he fell in love with. Since she can never stick to a diet, she comes up with a drastic solution.

Sarah asks her sister Max to lock her up in her basement and feed her nothing but healthy meals. Max, a struggling waitress, agrees begrudgingly. She’s skinny, but has her own set of appetites—for drink, drugs, and great-looking losers.

Sarah thinks a summer in Max’s basement will give her a new body, a chance to reconnect with Harry, and the friendship she’s long craved from her sister. But things quickly go wrong. Max’s drinking leads her to neglect Sarah, who figures out how to get out of the basement. Sarah develops an obsession with Max’s boyfriend and manages to fulfill a sexual fantasy by pretending to be something she’s not.

Can Sarah turn back time with Harry or will she and Max kill each other first? Can either sister ever learn to say no?

My Review:

The first thing that caught my eye about this book was the cover, it’s gorgeous!  After reading a blurb of “Appetites,” I was hooked.  I was curious as to how Sarah’s plan would work and how far she would go to be at the weight she wanted.

Once I started this book, I didn’t want to stop.  The characters stand for themselves.  As sisters they’re very different, but in some ways, I found them to be similar.  There were times when I would be fighting for Sarah to stick it to her sister and flee the basement for good, but I liked her determination.  Max’s character was very well written.  For someone who thinks she’s tough, I thought she was a softy who desperately wanted to be more like Sarah.

Parts of the book I was laughing-out-loud, then in others, I was teary-eyed because it’s obvious that Sarah and Max really care for each other, they’re just stubborn.

“Appetites” was a wonder book and highly recommend it as a beach read.

I give this book 4 stars!

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**About Karen Frankola:  Karen Frankola wrote Appetites to explore the hard choices women make in love and work. Karen spent much of her career writing very short stories at news organizations like CNN and MSNBC, so creating a novel was challenging. She now does a variety of writing for corporations and nonprofit organizations. Karen is lucky enough to work mostly from home, with her dog Rascal curled up under her desk.

Karen grew up near Pittsburgh, where she spent much of her childhood reading books in the cemetery that bordered her family’s backyard.  Karen moved to nine different states and England.  Some of her favorite jobs were teaching journalism at the University of Missouri, working as a television news director, and handling video shoots for Deloitte around the world.  She also spent a summer repairing motors at a steel mill and hopes to soon publish a coming-of-age memoir about that experience.

Karen and her husband Troy now reside  in Durham, North Carolina, where they enjoy watching deer in the woods behind their house, lots of live music, beautiful biking trails, and great neighbors.

Karen is working on a sequel to Appetites and would love to hear what you think of it.

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Lori Verni-Fogarsi (LoriTheAuthor)

May 15, 2013 4 Comments

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About, Lori Verni-Fogarsi (LoriTheAuthor):  Lori Verni-Fogarsi has been an author, speaker, and small business consultant since 1995. She has been featured in major media including “Lifetime Women’s Network,” the “My Carolina Today Show,” and “Boston Globe Forums Live.” Her public speaking has occurred at many prestigious venues including “North Carolina State University,” “Nassau Community College,” and more. She has received two awards for her novel, “Momnesia,” and her nonfiction, “Everything You Need to Know About House Training Puppies and Adult Dogs,” continues to be one of the most highly recommended in its genre since 2005. Lori is a happily married mom of two, step mom of two more, and has two cats, both rotten. She is very excited about the release of “Unexpecting,” and enjoys getting to know her readers via social media and in person. She invites you to learn more at www.LoriTheAuthor.com.

GUEST POST

When I was invited to be a guest on Chick Lit Goddess, my first thought was, “This is so validating… now I’m an ‘official’ goddess instead of only in my head!” At least that’s what I’ve been trying to convince myself for the past several years.

The fact is, we ladies tend to be way too hard on ourselves. It seems like no matter how much we do, or what all we accomplish, we never seem to feel like it’s enough—even if others think we’re fabulous! A few years ago, I decided that enough is enough (pun intended), and that I would strive to appreciate myself for all the good things I do do, instead of torturing myself about the few things I don’t.

This inspired part of the storyline in my novel, “Momnesia.” For example, the main character comes to the realization that instead of focusing on her “Chicken Belly Flap Thing” that is the direct result of bearing children, she’d try to get her sexy back by appreciating the positive traits she does possess, right now, today. I mean, really? How long can we sit around lamenting the high school figure we no longer have—which is completely unrealistic and unattainable anyway? Are we going to look back in ten years and think we look better then? Um, probably not. Better to try and appreciate ourselves today.

This is just one example, but there is a common thread throughout both “Momnesia” and my new release, “Unexpecting,” about the perfectionistic demands we women tend to place on ourselves. One of my hopes is that my readers will embrace their inner goddesses and strive for a life balance that allows for being a happy person while also taking good care of our families and other responsibilities.

In “Unexpecting,” Shelley and David’s kids are just about grown and off to college when Alexandra, seventeen and pregnant, shows up on their doorstep and announces that she’s the daughter he never knew he had! She’s got nowhere else to go and the couple end up helping her raise another baby “from scratch,” right when they were about to start having free time.

The story progresses to include all sorts of family drama, problems when Alexandra turns to drugs, and strains on the marriage. And Shelley, as is typical of we women, often feels like even though she’s doing so much, it’s still never enough. Not to mention that she also feels like she no longer fits in anywhere, and struggles to forgive her husband after he nearly destroys their marriage.

“Momnesia” is definitely written in more of a true chick lit tone, as it’s very funny while still being thought provoking. “Unexpecting” has more of a women’s fiction tone with some humor here and there.

If you decide that you’d like to read my books, (thank you!) now would be a great time to get them! From 5/14 – 5/20/2013, all of my books are on sale (Kindle version) for only $1.99 each!

If you’d like to preview “Momnesia,” you can read the first two chapters free at: http://www.loritheauthor.com/loris-books/momnesia/

If you’d like to preview “Unexpecting,” you can read the first chapter free here: http://www.loritheauthor.com/unexpecting/chapter/

One of my favorite things about being an author is interacting with my readers. Let’s face it, being an author is a rather solitary job! So, in appreciation of my fans as well as to maintain my social sanity, I often host fun giveaways, special online events, and more. Perhaps you’ll connect with me via social media? I look forward to getting to know you!

Books by Lori Verni-Fogarsi (LoriTheAuthor)

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LoriTheAuthor**Contact Lori Verni-Fogarsi (LoriTheAuthor)

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**Additional comments by Lori Verni-Fogarsi (LoriTheAuthor):

Thank you so much for inviting me to Chick Lit Goddess! I look forward to getting to know everyone, and their thoughts about being goddesses who are good to ourselves, perhaps through comments below!

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S.Moose

May 13, 2013 4 Comments

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About the author, S. Moose:  I grew up in Webster, NY and love it here. I have my BA from St. John Fisher College and am working at MAXIMUS Federal Services. I love reading and writing. I’ve never “followed” the traditional English writing structure and love to be creative. I was inspired to write after reading Forever Black by Sandi Lynn and it has been an amazing journey. I truly love my life and where I am at.

I got married to my best friend June 9, 2012 which is always the date I have selected to release my first novel Reaching Out For You. I selected this day because last year when I married Kevin it was the happiest day of my life. This will be my first book and I am so excited to share with my world Adam and Sophia. Their journey to find love, to me, is a true love story.

I love being around my family and friends. We do everything from family parties, to BBQ’s, going out or just relaxing at home.

I feel like I am achieving my goals and dreams but this is just the beginning.

INTERVIEW

What is the writing/editing/publishing process like for you?  I am doing everything on my own because I like to set my own schedule and deadlines. I’ll brainstorm for a day or two and then start writing. I love to listen to music while I write because it inspires me and I get some pretty great ideas while doing so. Editing is my nightmare! With Reaching Out For You there were times when I wanted to press delete and disappear but with the love and support of my family and friends I was able to overcome my fears.

A writer must have…:  A creative mind. You must be able to paint a story for your readers and connect with them with your words.

Where is your favorite writing location?  In my room-it’s my safe haven.

What is your favorite word?  Love

Who or what inspires you?  Self-published authors. I am in several groups on Facebook and the authors I have connected with are amazing. I love talking to them and getting their opinions.

What are you reading right now?  Resisting Her by Kendall Ryan

How do you come up with the titles of your books?  I like to play around with words and what would attract a potential reader.

While working, what is your choice of snack?  Cookies and chips haha so terrible for you but it’s my weakness!

Who is your favorite author, and what would you like to tell him/her?  Sandi Lynn-thank you so much for your encouraging words and wisdom. You have helped me so much and I am so thankful to have you as my friend. I hope to meet you one day and hug you because you truly have made an impact with my decision to pursue my writing career.

How has the social media helped your career thus far?  I love it. Facebook, Twitter and Goodreads have been very helpful and without social media people wouldn’t know about me or my book.

Five years from now you hope to…:  Be on the New York Times Bestseller list with several books published. I hope to have a publishing company find me and offer me a deal of a lifetime. Personally, I hope to be a mom in five years and feel complete.

Can you tell us about any future projects you have in mind?  I am currently working on my second book, Teach Me Love. It’s about finding love and trusting yourself. The power of love can create miracles and hopefully it’ll open up his eyes. Additionally, I am working on the second book to the Never Letting Go series which will be about Connor and Erin-best friends of Adam and Sophia. No title yet but be on the lookout for both novels.

BOOK FEATURE

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Adam and Sophia were best friends but when tragedy strikes it’s more than Adam can handle and he leaves Sophia alone in the dark.

Four years later, Adam and Sophia are reunited and the sparks between them return but is it too late?

Sophia is happy again and has let go of the darkness. She has great friends and a sweet boyfriend name Kyle. Now that Adam is back how will she be able to balance her boyfriend and her best friend?

The darkness always finds you again but will Adam be able to save her or leave her again?

Chapter 1

Life is tricky. It does things that make you wonder. It always throws curve balls but it takes strength and love to be able to get through the disasters. The simple words and actions of others can make a difference between life and death. Sometimes it’s hard to feel love, but it’s always there. The love of a parent, a sibling or a friend is there but the darkness has a way of hiding those feelings that people yearn for. Darkness. What a funny word that carries such evilness and fear. The darkness can be defeated but it takes a strong person that’s willing to see past it and reach for the light. The light can be anyone or anything.

My light left me in the dark, but life always has a way of making things right again. I see my light every week but I can’t bring myself to say anything. I feel nothing but shame and embarrassment. I messed up with my light and I wish he’d see how much I miss him. But I think it might be too late. My light looks happy and satisfied. I don’t wanna mess up his life like I did before.

I look down at my journal and read what I just wrote. Writing was an escape from reality for me. I could write about anything and everything and know that my words were for my eyes only. It was a release and a way to put things in perspective- my own private counseling session. I was able to reevaluate my thoughts and actions.

My therapist, Dr. Taylor, keeps encouraging me to write since it allows to me see myself in my words. My thoughts run wild as I think about Adam. He’s the only one who understands me. I fell in love with him when we were ten years old. I used to imagine our wedding and being with him forever. He’s still my first love. I think about him every day. The bond we had was irreplaceable. I didn’t think that leaving him would leave an ache in my heart that has never gone away.

I place my head on my pillow and my mind goes back to August when I saw him again. He came into my creative writing class and I couldn’t believe he was there. I thought he was in Boston for school and never thought I’d see him sitting there in my class at my school. His blonde hair was done perfectly and those piercing blue eyes looked through me as if he saw my soul. The way his polo hugged his beautiful body made me quiver. I imaged him picking me up in those strong arms and putting those lips all over me.

I shake my head and push those thoughts away. It’s too late and the damage had been done. I close my journal and put it back under my pillow. I think a little more about life as I get up from my bed to get ready for class.

I’m in my senior year of college and am up for a full time position with Optimax-a newfound technological company that focuses on the success of students. The company has released new products that help students who have trouble learning and paying attention. The new advances in the company strived to push students in the middle and high school levels to graduate and go to college.

I’ve always wanted to help people especially kids and teens. The position at the company primarily focuses on the marketing and sales end but just to be a part of something so innovative is a great feeling. Life is going well and I’m happy but there’s still something missing.

I finish getting ready for class and give myself a quick check in the mirror. I grab my purse and books and head out. My dorm was newer and nicely renovated. I have the dorm room to myself and it feels good to come back after a day full of classes to relax and not have to worry about anyone else. College was a whole new world for me.

The university was older and has a historical essence. It was built in the 1899’s but there’s so much life and energy that surrounds the school. It provides a calm and serene feeling that helps students relax. The trees and intact nature gives it a touch of tranquility many people try to find after a long day of classes. Some of the buildings are newer, but many of the buildings didn’t have elevators, only stairs. There are four different main buildings and six buildings for the dorms with 15 rooms on each floor. Each dorm building has three floors and are all secured. Each student has their own key card with access to just their building. I feel safe in my dorm knowing that not anyone could come right in. There are benches and trees all over and during the warmer months several students would plant flowers in the courtyard to enhance the liveliness of the school. I’m only an hour away from home so leaving wasn’t ever an issue. I wanted to be close yet far enough so that I was able to grow and live my own life without the protective eyes of my dad and older sister Sarah.

It’s December and luckily no snow in North Carolina. It’s freezing outside but the walk to my class isn’t too bad of a walk. I look around and notice the bare trees all around. There’s a peaceful feel in the air today. I look up to the sky and remember my mom’s voice-god I miss her so much.

As I enter the building I see Erin chatting away with a group of friends. I still remembered the day I met her.

It was the first day of freshmen orientation and I saw this petite blond hair, green-eyed girl coming my way. I thought she’d mistaken me for someone else so I turned around and started walking away.

“Hey!”

I turned around and saw her smile. “Um hi?” The question in my tone made me sound like a snob but I didn’t know how else to answer her.

“I’m Erin. It’s nice to meet you! I love your outfit! Oh my god! We need to go shopping together.”

We’ve been friends ever since.

“Why hello sunshine.” She gives me a quick hug and smiles. “Where you going now?”

I point over to the classroom on the right hand side. “History. World War II you know that fun stuff.”

“I don’t even know why you’re taking that class. You’re like done with everything so why bother.”

“One it’s a very interesting class and two I like to learn new things.”

“Learn anything from Kyle yet?” The evil smirk on her face makes me laugh.

Kyle Harrington, captain of the basketball team, all around amazing, sweet, sexy, gorgeous and smart guy is my boyfriend. We met at the Business Leaders of America group last semester. We were assigned to work together on a project and I hated the idea of being paired with him. I thought he was a cocky jock at first and I was prepared to do the whole project without him. But he surprised me and put in his part of the project. We spent endless nights together in the café going through every slide to ensure everything was perfect. Kyle was like me, a perfectionist. He had so many good ideas and I was crushing on him bad only after spending so much time with him but I wasn’t experienced and never had a boyfriend so being around Kyle was new. I had a feeling he felt the same way but I was too scared to ask. He’d ask me to go to his basketball games and we spent a lot of time together. Finally on our fourth date, he asked me to be his girlfriend and I said yes. We’ve been together for a few months and things were going great but he started to change. Our relationship turned from romantic and sweet to arguing every day. I didn’t know what to do-I wanted to break up with him. I’m holding a secret and I’ve tried to leave him but he won’t let me go. I can’t seem to get away and each time I do, he gets mad and treats me horribly. I shake away those thoughts and try to focus on Erin.

I look back and see her waiting patiently for my answer. “No nothing new,” I laugh.

“How are you a 21 year old virgin? God Soph are you planning on becoming a nun or something?”

“Funny.” I shrug my shoulders. “You’re lucky you’re my best friend. But I gotta get to class, talk to you later.” We give each other another hug and I get to class. I make my way to the back of the classroom and get ready for class to start.

Students are slowly making their way into class. The room is fairly large with windows all over. It’s nice to look out and watch the world pass you by during a boring lecture. Today we’re discussing imprisonment. So fun.

I pull out my notebook from my purse when I see Adam come into the room. My breathing stops and I feel my heart pounding. Our eyes meet and there’s something in his eyes that I can’t figure out. He has a look-a look he used to always give me. He puts his hand up to say “hi” and smiles. I freeze. I can’t say or do anything. He didn’t have this class so why is he here? My mind goes back to the night I almost lost Adam:

I was driving to the restaurant to meet my dad and Sarah for dinner. I was at the stoplight when I saw someone sitting by a tree in the corner of the road. Usually I ignored the person and carried on but a voice told me to go see if they were okay. I pulled my car up to the curb and put it in park. When I got out and started walking over to the mysterious person, I realized it was Adam and started running. I made sure he was breathing and started to shake him. He slowly opened his eyes and said my name, “Sophia,” and passed out again. I smelled alcohol on his breath and knew that if we brought him to the hospital and got the cops involved it would mean trouble for him and I didn’t want that to happen. I ran back to my car and brought it over so I could put Adam in the backseat. I immediately called my dad and told him what was going on; he was a doctor at a nearby hospital and he would know what to do. He got nervous and wanted me to call Adam’s parents but I knew his dad would have freaked out so I pleaded with mine to have him spend the night. It took some time but my dad finally gave me instructions on what to do. My nerves were running wild and I was scared. I didn’t want anything bad to happen to Adam. The adrenaline and fear helped me get him in the car but I was exhausted after getting him in. When I got Adam to my house my dad was there with Sarah waiting for me. We managed to get him inside and settled on the couch. After my dad was done making sure he was ok, he left the room with Sarah so I could be with him. I sat across from him and watched him sleep. I sent a text to Connor letting him know what was going on but never heard back. I wanted to crawl next to Adam and tell him to forgive me and to come back to me but that never happened. I was too scared to see how he’d react. I was leaving the next day to go to school and from what I heard he was heading to Boston. I simply gave me a kiss on the forehead and said goodbye. I never found out what happened the next morning and never asked how he reacted. I left the next morning at six without saying bye to Adam. I hated myself for doing that but I couldn’t face him. Sarah tried to tell me but I waved her off and said I couldn’t handle it because I couldn’t.

The pain in my heart pokes its ugly head out. I would have given anything just to have him back in my life. I couldn’t take my eyes off of him and my body aches for his touch. As soon as Dr. Murphy comes into class he takes Adam into the hall. I wonder what’s going on. I try and peek out but they’re so quiet and everyone in class is loud so I can’t hear anything.  I keep thinking about the times we’ve run into each other and the smiles he gives me. Adam has two smiles-a friendly smile and one that means something else. The smile I get is the one that means something else, but I wasn’t sure the meaning. I’ve never taken the chance to talk to him because I’m scared with how he’ll react. Would he dismiss me? Would he care? I don’t think he’d be rude since he smiles whenever I’m around but something just feels off. Finally Dr. Murphy comes back into class, without Adam, and starts his lecture.

I try and listen to what he’s talking about but I keep thinking about Adam. The way he looks today stays on my mind. I love looking into his blue eyes. He was my best friend and I shared everything with him. Every memory I had he was in it. We were inseparable all throughout elementary, middle and high school until senior year when I ended our friendship. If only I could take back that night.

“Miss Burns?”

I quickly look up when Dr. Murphy calls my name. “I’m sorry Dr. Murphy could you repeat the question?”

Annoyance in his tone he asks, “What are your thoughts about imprisonment?”

I look around the room and see my classmate’s eyes on me. This seems like an easy answer since I experience imprisonment almost every day. I’m confident with my answer. “It’s an evil force that was used throughout the war and I think it was used to create fear and control.”

Dr. Murphy’s face starts to glow. “Good Miss Burns.”

He continues on with class and starts talking about how we shouldn’t let history repeat itself and making small changes can help ensure that. I thought about what he was saying and realized how I didn’t want history to repeat. I didn’t want the darkness to take over my life anymore.

When he dismisses class, I hurry out the room.  I send a text to Erin so that we can meet for coffee. My body suddenly freezes and I feel someone watching me. I slowly turn around and see Adam behind me. Why did he have to transfer here to my school? Out of the thousands of schools there are in the United States, why this one? I was doing fine without him near me! Well that’s a lie. I dream about him every night and wish he would come back. But how can I be around him when I’m dating Kyle? I have to be loyal and faithful. It’s hard enough to see him at the basketball practices and games. I try to avoid him at all costs but nothing works. He’s always around!

Erin tried being friends with him since they had some classes together and talked about how good he looked or how nice he is. After a few weeks of listening to her talk about Adam, I became jealous and turned into a bitch. I told her that it was he or I. She called me a dumb and immature for that but being around Adam brought back too many memories that I buried all those years ago.

My eyes are ready to pop out of my head. I didn’t know what to say to him or what to do. He gets in front of my face and I couldn’t talk. Our eyes connect and it’s a feeling no one could ever describe. The way he makes me feel is unbelievable.

“Hey Soph.” He smiles at me. “It was good seeing you in class. Sorry I couldn’t talk but maybe next time.” He places his hand on my shoulder and gives me a gentle squeeze and walks towards the gym. My body is on fire. With just one touch, my mind is spinning in circles and I feel everything in my body tighten.

I stand there with my mouth dry and my heart beating out of my chest. I couldn’t even say hi to him. This is ridiculous. I am twenty-one years old and can handle talking to an old friend. An old friend that I still love and fantasize about. Oh yeah, saying Hi should have been easy!

I make it to the café and order a soy caramel latte with an extra shot of espresso. I take a sip and wait for Erin at a table in the corner of the room. I play that scene over in my head and try to figure out what hell just happened. I’m beside myself and embarrass because I stood there like an idiot. Maybe he didn’t hate me and was trying to get back in my life?

“Girl stop thinking.”

My head jerks up and my bubbly best friend is dressed to impress with her skinny jeans, black knee high boots and a sweater. “Hi to you too sunshine.”

She takes my latte and sits down. “Yeah yeah. Alright what’s going on?”

I give her my death stare as she drinks my latte. “Nothing! I wanted to see you and catch up.” I want to tell her more about Adam but it feels weird to talk about him.

“Bullshit.” She rolls her eyes at me. “I know something’s up with you so tell me.”

I sigh. I knew she wouldn’t let this go and get me to talk. “Alright so remember Adam right?”

“Yeah hot Adam Simpson.” My body tenses again when she says his name.

“I can’t stop thinking about him Erin. I dream about him at night and freeze every time he’s near me. I can’t focus at all and ugh!” I sigh as think about all of this. Why was this so hard? “And get this? He was walking behind me earlier and said “hey Soph.” I almost died!”

Erin slaps my arm and nearly falls out of her chair. “What the hell did you say back to him?”

I look away from her, “nothing,” I mumble.

“Huh? Talk louder,” she enunciates her words.

“Nothing!” I shriek and then put my hands over my face to hide my humiliation.

Erin bursts out laughing. “You said nothing? Oh my god Soph.”

“Yes please laugh at me because that makes me feel so much better!”

She takes my hand and looks at me. “Honey, I love you so much but you’re a riot. Why do I feel like something else is going on with you?” She looks at me with question in her eyes. I looked away from her. “Oh no Sophia! Tell me what’s going on!”

I roll my eyes. “I don’t know if I wanna be with Kyle anymore. Things suck right now. All we do is fight and he’s an asshole.” I sighed and leaned back in my chair. “I don’t know Erin. I mean we fight a lot and he gets mad when I don’t wanna go out. I like to stay away from the party scene and he hasn’t grown up, he is still a partier. He’s different behind closed doors when we’re alone.”

“Aww Soph I’m sorry. Have you tried talking to him?”

“No.” I look down at my hands. “He doesn’t like to talk about anything.”

Erin gets up and walks over to me. She sits down again and looks me in the eyes. “I want you to be happy Soph because you deserve nothing but the best. If you are feeling shitty with Kyle then leave him. If you want Adam make sure you’re done with Kyle. You gotta do you babe.”

I look at my best friend and think about what to do next.

**Comments from the author, S. Moose:  Thank you for your time! This was fun and I am glad to have met you and the other Goddesses! Also, I love meeting my fans so feel free to email me and send me a message on Facebook or Twitter!

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